sunshine spillover!

2008-01-25T01:40:00.001+08:00

MOVED TO A NEW HIDEOUT ALREADY LA COS I CANNOT FIDDLE WITH THIS TEMPLATE ANYMORE ):

2008-01-21T21:12:00.001+08:00

Unpretty day!

---

Let go, and let God.
Indeed.

Tuesday is my off day and I suddenly remembered half-priced waffles at Gelare after school. Nobody's free to go for half-priced waffles anymoreeee.

2008-01-18T23:02:00.000+08:00

I've been eating alot alot these days it's bad! :XXX Haha nobody bothers about this space anymore which is why I'm gna do all the nitty gritty here :D The week's been pretty smooth-sailing I guess except for many blonde moments that I myself can't explain o.o I saw the first quarrel that happened too and it was quite bad because there were tears and raised voices and everything. Like the clash between the consultants and the customer service officers. It's quite sad because sometimes the consultants are under constant pressure to raise sales and when they cannot keep their emotions in check that's it. Sometime in the middle of the week I met Zhiyang during my break and we went to eat dessert! And from then on I got to know the food being sold around my place better (which explains the eating alot part). Breaks have been so much of buying takeaways because Denise is on MC and we cant go for breaks together anymore. Oh I've been venturing in the realms of makeup but apparently not getting much better and I've been assured that I'll be equipped with the necessary skillzzz by the time I end work. Oh today I spent my night the most unexpected way. I was supposed to have dinner with Zhiyang after work but I ended up having it with Reuben instead (I HAD to return his ipod vid) and then spent the rest of the night walking around Raffles Place and Clarke Quay! I brought him to my workplace! Because he insisted on going to his supposed future workplace but then we got lost and ended up touring the sleazy nightspots. Okay more like him taking me around. Some woman tried to ask him to go up to some sleazy place to sing karaoke and drink HAHA. Then it was free cab home woooo. So here I am blogging again before I lose the chance to even be in sync with the blogosphere. Everyone at work's been asking about results and where I want to go and everything and it's reminding me of Alevel results over and over again. Tsk but oh well work first worry about the rest later!! I think I effectively spent my $200 already and now I'm just waiting for my next off day and CNY to get ample rest hahaha. Okay I'm going off I'm on morning shift tmr! (: Bye.

2008-01-15T11:23:00.001+08:00

Yesterday night was good (: Nothing beats spending time with churchies, especially when it's yyxz, it's true. I had fun singing, especially the reach out to jesus song with tying hahaha. It sounded so much like the blues! Plus all the guitar strumming and everything, wah the bomb. And then on the way home there was this mass singing of all the xing guang da dao songs it's like the fever thing now. So the whole night I was just singing random songs and the brother(s) thought I was emo-ing my night away. It's just that it's been so long since I last sang so much in the night to the skies and everything. Haha okay sounds so wondrous. Anyhow I am thankful for the amount of human interaction after so long, with people who were once so familiar (quite). Thankful, thankful. Thankful how the night of singing hymns set my heart at ease, especially when I was fretting after seeing Liangying's message about baptism. Thankful how He's been seeing me through each day of work despite me having not come to Him for such a long time already. He looks out for us, He really does.

2008-01-13T21:54:00.000+08:00

Hi darlings! To those who care, days've been good. Work's kept me busy and I've been quite happy at work thanks to my happywappy colleagues and everyone's been taking good care of me because I'm like a kid to them and the boys told me they will protect me HAHA. Andandand I bought the Sarah Jessica Parker Covet perfume because I tried the sample and it smells so good. Because I bought it out of my own pocket I gotta go collect that damned good progress award to make up for the $$ gone from my bank account. Aiyo omg I'm addicted to the xing guang da dao thing all because I was watching it with the remaining few consultants one night on youtube when I was supposed to photocopy schedules. Okay bye I'm off to watch tv and then go sleep already hope everybody's fine! The last thing I want to happen to me now is to be fired hahaha. Okay bye this is such a redundant entry.

2008-01-08T10:23:00.001+08:00

Wah shit la I was such an emo wreck last night now I look at my previous entry and I feel like what-was-I-doing-??? seriously. Okay I am always like that so forgive me. Anyway yes I gotta leave for work in half an hour's time and that's like bad 'cos I haven't gotten anything ready yet. And I gotta learn something about makeup soon because I suck at it but I probably gotta start using it soon. Okay gotta zoooooom bye I finally don't feel so anti-social anymore. We've all got a choice and I think I chose to sulk in one corner for many many days. And I'm happier because tomorrow I knock off at 430 and then after that I'm just gonna go shopping around. And I'm even happier because I'm gonna eat at tcc one day during my break time with Zhiyang! (: YAY. TCC IS GREAT.

OKAY BYEBYE HAPPY DOING EVERYTHING KIDS (:

2008-01-08T01:33:00.000+08:00

Fifty miles to go, and she was running low on faith and gasoline

♥♥♥ No, that wasn't what I wanted. I must remember that everything that happens is for a reason. I feel like I don't even have the right to be sad or drop tears anymore because it seems I should be counting my blessings and not have anything to complain about, considering my current situation.

Right?

2008-01-07T01:17:00.000+08:00

I like taking cabs at night alone because I can have silent moments to myself and not have to worry about whatever emotions I show. Even if I dig my nose I doubt anyone would catch it. No, I'm not saying I dug my nose just now on the cab.

2008-01-05T22:13:00.000+08:00

Today, I said very loudly and clearly that I didn't want to be named Mary because Denise accidentally called me Mary. And it turns out that Mary was the customer she was still serving.

2008-01-04T11:19:00.000+08:00

Truth to be told, I'm quite scared.
Of everything. Every single thing.
Never have been so stressed in my entire life.

But it's not entirely bad, I have a secret motivation to go to work.

Byebye, it's only day 2.

2008-01-03T11:27:00.000+08:00

You are the peace that guards my heart
My help in times of need
You are the hope that leads me on
And brings me to my knees

For there I find You waiting
And there I find release
So with all of my heart I worship
And unto You I'll sing

For You alone deserve all glory
For You alone deserve all praise
Father we worship and adore You
Father we long so see Your face

For You alone deserve all glory
For You alone deserve all praise
Father we love You
And we worship You this day

2008-01-01T23:56:00.000+08:00

I read this at someone's blog before and I realised it's something I'm thankful for, too.

Sometimes I end up telling random people more than I initially intend to,
but I'm glad they actually care enough to pick up this non-random piece of
information amidst the randomness.

2008-01-01T04:54:00.000+08:00

hello happy new year evarybardyyyy (:
i just got home to two fuming parents who didnt come out of their room to scold me, thank God. anyway i spent my eve to new year day transition at watchnight service, then with people ive never really been with before (mostly), the songxuan zhiyang daozhi reuben nathan hongen bunch and zhijing who later joined us; as well as had many many first times thanks to them lol :D chilled out at the bar zhijing was working at while waiting for him to knock off. and on the way with them i had: my first hoegaarden, my first tequilla sunrise, my first fluffy duck, my first foosball game, my first running around with a stream of balloons, my first dough fritters with soya bean milk, my first chicken rice (in ages), my first time gallivanting around on the streets of orchard late into the wee hours of the day, my first time exchanging more than 10 lines in conversation to my company (except zhiyang and zhijing and daozhi la), my first witnessing of hordes and hordes of er, foreign workers getting exciteddd over the new year hur hur. very eventful, very memorable yes.

2007 is officially really over, i dont know how that happened, really! life was really all about complaining about the coming A's, and then mugging for them when the big thing really came. did reasonably okay for prelims (that explains the good progress award) and then when the real thing came i just slipped real bad ): tea party and venezia became our haven when studies got too tiring and we were in no better mood to wait hours just for a single last period. pe (my most favouritest subject) to my dismay slowly became optional. churchies slowly came into my life when i began talking to them more online and off. but many friends slowly drifted away at the same time, especially the old ones. it became quite hard to even hold a normal how-it-used-to-be conversation. began trying to love and embrace everyone even though i have nothing good to say about some particular people. embraced food as well and bade farewell to dieting. morphed into an elmo with a silent 'l'. countless cold wars at home to the extent that it began snowing (ha ha ha). many many things that happened, good or bad. but the thing is that, all the fun the good stuff brings ultimately erases the angst and upsetness the bad stuff has caused, so what's really most important is to end and start a year with a big bang so the bad stuff gets reduced to a nil.

which i just did (:

thankful for the wonderful company, really ♥

P.S. i hope true yoga calls me back tmr to confirm with me my work times so i can be at ease already. i asked them that day 'does that mean i get the job?' they said 'yes'. so why does everything still feel so surreal lol.

2007-12-31T18:00:00.001+08:00

service later! to say goodbye to 2007 and embrace 2008. think i'll have lots to say after the service, so till then.

and the person hasn't called me to tell me what time to report work on wednesday and that's making me worried because i really still feel like the whole ifoundajob episode is so so surreal.

okay gotta bathe!

2007-12-29T17:49:00.000+08:00

pictures! ♥♥♥

♥♥♥

2007-12-28T23:38:00.001+08:00

hey doods, i found my job already it's at raffles place! and i'll have an hour break during my shift i heard so is there anyone working in that area who wants to lunch with me?? (: i managed to grab hold of yuzheng and possibly qihui already hoho.

and another thing. talking to yuzheng just brought me sorry memories about A levels :O howwwwwwz.

there's combined service this sunday! last sunday of the year. i want to be able to make it. and i keep forgetting after service we have some nice good food at laoshi's house. yay it feels like it's been so long since i last saw everybody! actually it's only laoshi. and von. hahaha

with the year about to end it means all my friends will start leaving one by one for army! all army boys hahaha. i wish they'l all put their enlisting dates on their nicks for easy reference, seriously i know i asked juin like yesterday but i completely forgot the date ALREADY.

we had a gathering on thursday after my job interviews but it was like with part of the group only. had a little short updating session and it was good even though i hung out with them for a while only. OMG EP'S TOFFEES ARE STILL IN MY BAG I BETTER GO CHECK ON IT.

i shall spare yall the complaints about fats cos i believe everyone's been talking about it ever since the respective feasts on christmas and all! okay goodnight i shall go add a tagboard maybe now or soon hahaha have a happy last few days of 2007 (:

2007-12-28T12:31:00.000+08:00

yearly ritual at the sanctuary (: notice how much weight mr lookeewei has lost, really!!

2007-12-07T18:16:00.001+08:00

i think it's very nice to see so many people in church today but all working for the same purpose! (: really made my day even though i only slacked around and helped gabrielle cut one and a half aeroplanes hahaha. anyway her name tags are like super cute i think i will take a photo of it during the camp!! my rectangular tags are feeling inferior haha. MAROOMBA sounds so exotic and african, i like. cant wait for camp! doesn't feel like it's coming though, when it's only THREE DAYS AWAYYYY. i better remember to bring phone charger. okayyyy and maybe start finding a huge enough bag to do the packing for FIVE DAYS FOUR NIGHTS. okay now it feels like the camp is nearing!

2007-12-06T13:16:00.000+08:00

i love life these days that i have no desire to find a job anymore! every day's been a little happy in some ways and i love indulging myself in afternoon naps and online window shopping. it's been raining every single day thus stealing my precious netball game from me, and every other possible chance to 'go to the library' just to walk around west mall or to do something bimbotic like going for manicures (which i haven't gone for in ages). of course the nearing of alpha camp makes me all excited, but i bet life after camp won't be so exciting anymore. that will mark the start of my job hunting again hopefully! ive gotten down to doing the name tag designs and (did i blog this before) my group name is called MAROOMBA. so quirky and cute i like. and every day there's something worth being happy about! like talking to nice people every day and saying we'll 'wear nice nice and go out okay' but then we never do haha. i still have pending trips that i badly want to go for but i have to plan carefully for church stuff also, which count as 'going out'. yeah lor but life is still pretty good and now it's the name tag making hype! smiles gazillionnnn alpha camp's coming in FIVE DAYS. woweeeee :DD

2007-12-05T23:54:00.000+08:00

i know i ought to be thankful but sometimes the overprotectiveness gets too much for my liking and i become quick to jump to my own defences ):

and i just found out our group name is called maroomba hahaha so cute i like. i still dont know what to do about the name tags.

i just ate alotalot at night when i shouldn't again ahhhhh bad mood gets me nowhere!

but i had a long chat with ting over the phone and that made me loads better, really (:

2007-12-04T22:30:00.001+08:00

the tea party is really better suited for chilling out over some tea than to have a whole lot of people rahrah-ing over some board games. now i kinda miss having a quiet afternoon over some tea.

i dont even know why my mum is pissed with me. wonderful hurrrrrrrrr.

2007-12-03T22:19:00.000+08:00

i really planned to run today until i got called to help xiaohui so i went to help and then my running plan was shelved and instead i ate more tonight which isn't really helping so i decided to forgo breakfast and sleep latelate until afternoon when i'll go meet my class and have a mini celebration for justin who's enlisting on the sixth of december. and then ting and i will ketchuppp (: no yyxz on tuesday already zzzz

2007-12-03T19:01:00.000+08:00

just came back from helping xiaohui with the alpha camp stuff. daniel zhilin enwei songxuan were there as well! great fun, life doesn't feel so aimless anymore. i had a really good time just doing work and talking to all of them ♥♥♥

sex monsters. really? i see more and more these days. eeeks.

2007-12-02T19:55:00.001+08:00

church today! (: i felt so strange on the stage singing because i haven't done so in ages. it wasn't particularly a good one though haha zixin songheng and i were talking about it after service. anyway daniel is my assistant group leader! but he's nowhere near half as excited as i am. actually today was a majorly sian day but then on the bus i was texting zhijing, and later reuben. so in a way they made my day much better! (: thank you, thank you. next week will be quite packed, but i'm happier that way. takes my mind off stuff that i don't really want to think about, you knowww.

distance, distance.

2007-12-01T22:12:00.000+08:00

thankful and happy (:
tmr i'm going to church! YAYYYY.

2007-11-30T12:47:00.000+08:00

megazillionic sucks i hate the horrible feeling and i can only wish for it to be gone soon.

2007-11-29T23:59:00.000+08:00

no the interview was a sea of scoopie wannabes so i can officially kiss my much wanted job goodbye already. went for supper at macs after yyxz and it was pure mindless happy fun but after that i started to think alot. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh but today is a learn to be thankful and to reflect day. to give thanks even if things dont go smoothly and see the little good things in huge bad things.

____________

2007-11-29T11:58:00.000+08:00

to hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk with two left feet
that's when i love you
i love you, endlessly

good luck, good luck to me.

edit. hello i went to read some blogs and i miss everyone already, really.

2007-11-28T19:26:00.001+08:00

i swear i've been feeling queasy in my stomach for the ENTIRE day. and for the whole of tmr too, until 530. aha i feel like a wimp for feeling like that haha but i really can't help it because it is my first time. but after that there's yyxz so i'm really looking forward to that! yay. and i'm highly amused by the stuff the air force and the navy have sent. the former sent a card with a pop-up plane accompanied by the sound of engines roaring, while the latter sent a board game with submarines and what not. hahaha what the hell ah. and i've been sleeping and eating more than usual haha that is bad. but they say nuts have good fats so i've been binging on them which actually will make the good fats become bad i suppose. shrugs! alpha camp come quick i'm really looking forward to it. just one year of joining the camp and it already brings back fond memories (: life's been alot of sleeping and eating and tv so i can't wait, can't wait, for alpha camp to come, and hopefully a job to have after the camp. pray for me pray for me!

2007-11-28T00:05:00.000+08:00

i am still scareddddd! ):

2007-11-27T22:36:00.001+08:00

i am scared about thursday you know you know you know. my littleindia&arabstreet trip was postponed even, just for that. i hope it will be okay i hope it will be okay i hope it will be okay. let it be okay!

2007-11-27T00:38:00.000+08:00

hello world i couldn't resist coming up here for an entry. i feel like the happiest little girl today, it was a good night with great songs and great chats. and ever since i recovered my bible from the hidden stash i've been reading verses and more verses every night. (: goodnight, world ♥

2007-11-26T19:23:00.000+08:00

Hello!
Thanks so much for your patience with us as we went through all the
applications for scoopies!
Congratulations, you've been selected to come for a Final Audition where
another round of interviews will take place.
Date: 29 Nov 07Registration time: 5.30pm – 5.45pm Venue: Ben & Jerry's @
The Cathay (2 Handy Road. It's next to Plaza Singapura)
If you make it through the Final Audition round, there will be 3 days of
training on 10-12 Dec 2007.
It’ll be from 10am – 2pm on all 3 days.

joy, oh joy. pray for me to get the job okay?

(edit.) okay in contrast to my euphoria my mum's totally against it. omg, i need to take up yoga. 've been increasingly short-tempered lately whenever the discussion switches to late nights and curfews (which is 11, for anyone interested). ahh!

on a lighter note, alpha camp IS really coming! looking forward to the sudden water shortages that come (actually maybe not haha), my group fighting against qiwei's group, and more more more (:

2007-11-25T22:51:00.000+08:00

i have a chick lit, the beautiful sights and sounds of littleindia&arabstreet, yyxz, church, playing with tingting's dog, and alpha camp to look forward to. a wonderful week ahead! that alone makes me happy already (:

不要吝嗇在需要的時候向人求助
如果能適時提供幫助是當朋友的一種滿足

2007-11-23T22:57:00.001+08:00

my dear girl, i'll pray for you, always ♥

if heaven is a million years away,
oh just call me and i'll make your day.

life is a lot of shrugs and more solitary walks.

没有期待, 就不會失望

2007-11-23T17:19:00.000+08:00

hello i am suffering from a deficiency which i'm ashamed of letting anyone know about. but it's not love though. aiyar okay byebye i feel like an aimless piece of thing. gotta go bathe now!

2007-11-22T19:13:00.000+08:00

OH MY GAD WHO WOULD'VE THOUGHT MY FIRST DAY OF POST-A'S COULD BE SO.. mundane. so i hope they call me soon so i can go workworkwork and earn some moolah. grrrrrr. D:

i just found out from my mum that my curfew is what. ELEVEN PM. and i am getting increasingly annoyed by it.

你是坏人

2007-11-22T16:28:00.000+08:00

this is back on track again! (: yayyy. anyway today was such a whoooosh day i am still in a dizzy mode. i feel extremely flattered but at the same time i also know how lies can be easily told behind a computer screen. andandand. i may be from acjc but i need not be a party animal like the rest. i'm sorry if that's your version of cool. ahhh what conflicting ideas i am really dizzy already. anyway A's are over!! :D but i dont feel any euphoria. takes time, takes time, maybe. okay i really hope b&j's call me sooooooon! wow i think i've lost the blogging bug now that i'm so used to journalling.

plea.

2007-08-14T19:56:00.000+08:00

take away my fears,
and set my heart at ease.
grant me a calm mind,
and give me the courage i need.

i've been sleeping with a shadow overhead.

2007-08-12T23:54:00.001+08:00

i know, i know, i shldnt be here at this time.
but i am VERY distracted! by 3 things, no less.

1. the new evidence that demands a verdict from enli juin may von. it's really interesting!
2. the rubik cube i koped from laoshi's.
3. and of course lena's msg about her upcoming wedding! (:

it wld've been pretty much a good month except for the fact that i'm probably gna spend it doing prelims, and then the next, all mourning and demoralised.

TSK.

buy me a smile.

2007-08-12T00:09:00.000+08:00

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time to clear a little space in the corners of my mind

)': alot of things.

2007-08-09T20:32:00.000+08:00

damn stressed laaaaa :(

2007-08-07T22:36:00.000+08:00

today was VERY unproductive i highly suspect i'm undergoing yet another biological change 'cos of my long overdue ______ which is here today. aiyar what am i doing prelims are in less than a weekkkkkkkkkkk wake up wake up wake up wake up!

Nerd.

2007-08-06T00:21:00.001+08:00

after feeling like $#@&! from studying and having super lotsa distractions in the middle, i went out with my parents to imm (my brother went MIA as usual) to walk around and eat dinner there! YES IT WAS A WELCOME BREAK. we went to kopitiam to have dinner at five plus 'cos i was famished! i think studying saps alot of energy yknow. i remembered having a really full lunch :/ nyeh heh. YTF (yongtaufoo, you acronym illiterates :D) was great, and so was CARROT CAKE!! yepppp. and then we went to giant and bought/ate more foooooood/munchies! i went crazy in four leaves, bread&pastries are so my middle name.

such an eating night, it was.

STUDY HARD! one week left.

come what may.

2007-08-04T23:30:00.001+08:00

i really hope things will work out! :/ faith, faith.

i had the wildest dreams of you.

2007-08-03T21:50:00.000+08:00

i had the nicest yet most absurd dream last night while sleeping at my table. but it's sad how dreams DON'T usually come true >:( annoying!

anyway, this was one of our informal shots! and i think some of us looked like we were caught peeing o.o check out brendan's ass!

2007-08-01T23:52:00.000+08:00

unsettled.

of limits and pushing it.

2007-08-01T18:49:00.000+08:00

actually, i feel very loved recently! because all the little prayers i made, God granted them in an instant (: and all i had to do was to ask, and trust. ♥♥♥ CELL MATES, SEE YOU NEXT NEXT SATURDAY!

2 resolutions
#1. FINISH a chapter of SOMETHING every day.
#2. STOP snacking/ overeating.

actually i think i look fine in the mirror! from a 100omiles away.

:B

2007-07-31T19:24:00.000+08:00

it's not so funny anymore when the joke's always on you laaaaa.

jaded

2007-07-29T12:02:00.000+08:00

the may june july babies! (: empty space = we were trying to pretend lena was standing between us -.-

{ prelims in.. 16 days ): }

hugs and kisses alike.

2007-07-26T21:05:00.000+08:00

i'm not in such a great mood to study, i'm afraid! the only good thing that happened was, perhaps, my successful cakey brownies. oh, and probably free movie tickets i received today which expires in AUGUST 2007. hello isn't it like near august already? so annoying.

i am so sad my tummy is growing exponentially ): and on a totally irrelevant sidenote, elvin ng is Y

0 :)

2007-07-25T22:33:00.000+08:00

But be doers of the word, and not merely hearers who deceive themselves. For if any are hearers of the word and not doers, they are like those who look at themselves in a mirror; for they look at themselves and, on going away, immediately forget what they were like. But those who look into the perfect law, the law of liberty, and persevere, being not hearers who forget but doers who act--they will be blessed in their doing.

At times, loving ourselves is hard because we know who we are. But God knows all about us and loves us anyway.

2007-07-22T22:14:00.001+08:00

MY CAPTAIN'S BALL TEE GOT DESTROYED IN THE WASH )))))):

connect.

2007-07-21T20:45:00.000+08:00

captain's ball was really good even though we lost! i think i've learnt to enjoy the process more than the results (: plus it made me run around alot after inactivity for one whole week. and most importantly, i got to interact with those long-lost churchies :D earned a free ride home from jianen after the match and what he said really made me realise i'm all but a kid learning to take responsibility bit by bit. funny how i thought i was already growing up and can take care of myself already. shrugs* mm didn't go for the amazing food race 'cos it was too far! :/ bet it was great fun going around eating, but nevertheless, i am contented to have spent half the day with some of the funniest, nicest people i know! Y BPMC yesyes.

reassured (:

the simpsons!

2007-07-21T06:32:00.000+08:00

hi, captain's ball match later! good luck to us (:

i don't like it when it rains on my side.

2007-07-18T21:44:00.000+08:00

my little pony (:

qihui sent me a cookie-on-a-stik via yuzheng delivery service! of course, i assumed yuzheng was part of the present too :D
________

i don't like it when my mum and i are (still) not talking!
i don't like it when school days end up in moodswings.
i don't like it when i start to mind things that i never used to yet i can't do anything except to laugh them off.

sucks la.

i need some tummy lovin'

2007-07-16T22:53:00.001+08:00

i had a tummy upset again today and i'm so lethargic right now. today was good, i still smile when i think of our group dinner yesternight. and i brought a big heart and a little pony home today, thanks to kat and XY! (: thanks ladies, i was hobbling home, really. dc was bearable, in fact very bearable, thanks to tong! we went to grab a bite before returning to the library to continue our detention haha.

have i said this already? aiyar nevermind say again. thanks for the presents okay! really appreciate them alot, especially those who went all out to try to get me stitch figurine capsules from the dongdong machine. i am very touched. love gazillions yes ♥♥♥

tmr i will go to school on time! sighhhhhhhh

E for Effort!

2007-07-15T22:40:00.000+08:00

HEY DEARIES.

i had a really really great 18th birthday! friday, saturday, sunday. thanks sunshines for being the light in my life (: presents didn't matter as much as the company i've had for the past few days, and i couldn't ask for more. we all gain some and lose some in life, and i've been secretly moaning and groaning for my sedentary love life, but i know i can't be more thankful to have such wonderful friends who make me feel so blessed. i love y'all, really. i hope i've been as much of a sunshine as y'all have been in my life!

THANKFUL.

i'm a crumbling cookie.

2007-07-12T20:28:00.000+08:00

okay i was full of angst just now but after looking at countless pictures of cookies and ribbons and milk, i'm feeling more zen now. pretty food = joy (: but yes i'm still upset over my horrendously done gp timed piece; i'll fly if i get a 20! growlsgrowlsgrumbles* everyone at westmall was being queer today! maybe it's because they haven't seen a round face before.

can't wait for cell at church! *cues screams*
i miss feeling rejuvenated after each service ):

i am secretly :/ just a little bit! it's gna be a lousy friday tmr! because it's friday the 13th, and because ______________. AIYARRRR )':

you're the getaway car.

2007-07-09T23:13:00.000+08:00

it's the guilt gnawing at my conscience 'cos the day's been so unproductive, yet i just can't seem to get anything done 'cos, well, i probably already lost the steam to continue. i can't wait for this damn thing to be over.

baby don't pretend that you don't know it's true.

deep down, i'm afraid some trivial things (that mean the world to me) won't turn out right. maybe that's why.

heart of worship.

2007-07-09T00:10:00.000+08:00

hello everybody, say hi to the yuzheng i made! ((:

my ipod's miraculously repaired! all by itself hahaha (: maybe i should give it a name because it's so cleverrrr. i'll think about it on my way to schl tmr! anyway i think my power rangers message alert is cool x100000000 or maybe you can try convincing me otherwise! nyeh heh. there was once joefai's phone rang in the middle of bio lect and ten odd of us (who all had the same message alert tone) stood up and went 'oops, i gotta go!' i think that's how we all should keep ourselves happy in school heh heh.

alright i am tired and my neck hurts mad. prelims are coming REAL soon so mug hard ehhbardy!!

my favourite pastime is to draw netballs.

2007-07-07T23:12:00.000+08:00

so.
i finally went to the optician after a week of blurred and wondrous now-i-see-it-now-i-don't vision. and found out the sneaky reason behind all this was that there was a layer of grime and protien (ie dirt) on my lenses! dirtayeeee :/ so anyway, this means i gotta go without lenses for a week (!!!) while they service it for me. and then i couldn't really get them to give me disposable monthly's 'cos the woman said i should let my eyes rest for this whole week. oh well, so hello to bespectacled me! 8) i think i look ugly in specs but i don't mind looking like a nerd in school! maybe it'll get me into the mugging mood heh heh. i hope i don't become unrecognisable though.

candid.

2007-07-06T22:59:00.000+08:00

today i spent my breaks running around the void deck, and then we played frisbee for pe!
if only school was this happy every day.

tmr: hotcakes happy meal with my mum :D (note: free toy with every meal!)
sunday: possible meetup with the sec schl people
tuesday: half-priced waffles at gelare with dearie jessica!

noel said this when we were discussing strategies for frisbee! super funny.
'jessie, you can go mark darren. either you charm him, or you scare him.'
inside joke inside joke.

okay gtg. i love you all!
andandand.
MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING IN EIGHT DAYS! ((((: you know what to do now!

study bloooooooooes.

2007-07-05T18:48:00.001+08:00

sometimes it's easy to talk and talk non-stop.
but sometimes, the words just don't come out at all.

i feel very bothered if i don't exercise at least once in 3 days. but i feel like i'll lose out on a lot of study time if i do go exercise eventually. this is crrrrrrrrazy.

新不了情

2007-07-03T23:30:00.000+08:00

i like that song! it's very emotionally rich. i think my dream will be to be able to emote songs properly, like i was telling scrawny goh today. she still hasn't deleted the song i sang i recorded using her mp3! damn cool :D

anyway, school's happy, but lessons suck. grrr.

:/ note to self: study!

jane shilton.

2007-07-01T21:30:00.000+08:00

today i spotted 5 +2 familiar faces! alina eow, this j1 ac-nh junior, enli, qiwei, kelvin! and some guy who acted in growing up, plus a celebrity hair stylist. that makes 5 +2, doesn't it? heh heh. anyway my parents and i went to the shops at raffles hotel arcade for fun. actually we only visited the louis vuitton shop. oh my tian it was really an eye opener, as in the people there shop like free! i mean, one bag's about 6000bucks at the very least, and they don't buy only one. that's crazy! maybe horrifying will be a better word :O went to library to read gp stuff after scouring the whole of raffles city, while my parents went home to rest. and then of course i met them for dinner. that was when something super embarrassing happened. i literally buried my face into my hands and couldn't react for ages. sheesh, maybe i need to be a little brighter D: but anyway after seeing so many people at westmall i finally conclude that bukit batok's no longer an ulufied place according to goh hui zhen (:

I WILL/MUST STUDY TMR.

love's a surprise.

2007-06-30T21:56:00.000+08:00

we took our height and weight on friday. i swear i saw the needle move at the speed of light. it wasn't THAT bad because i didn't weigh 1000000 tonnes like i imagined, but what made me more !@&*# was that apart from ting and terri chia, stupid jieli found out my weight too! rawrh. i wonder why he keeps appearing in front of me all of a sudden. so, friday was all about fats, with ben and sam my wonderful ex-classmates attacking my softest spot, health talk about dieting, and height&weight taking.

anyway my tongue ulcer's here to stay i'm afraid. it's been a week and it's not gone yet! ))): for an entire week i've been forgoing food in school because the ulcer hurt so much. okay things aren't that bad yet but i haven't been eating enough and that's bad for health because my body will just expand instead. hi fatty bom bom.

and listen, venezia is a sham with all the diet-friendly rubbish because the high sugar content just makes up for what's missing. talk about 99& fat-free and what not.

okay i should go do my tutorial now! and put the annoying powder on my ulcer, then scream silently in pain. byeeee.

love always catches us by surprise.

to my go-to-school-tgt buddy (:

2007-06-27T19:11:00.000+08:00

(WANGXIAOJIE! hello babe, this entry's just for you!)

school was such a chore, but after school was good (: after all the gripes and whining about school, i had as nice little chilling out session with my favouritest wangxiaojie at our most frequented hangout during the nanhua days- clementi! teehee (: though it was scorching hot, and we got tsk-ed by an aunty by sitting in macs drinking sweettalk, it was nice just rubbishing around and visiting random shops in clementi :D and what added on to the nostalgy was seeing mr fok around too! haha i instantly recalled the days of us girls having the tiniest crush on him and wailing when he had to leave. those were the days! -.- we should have more of such after school de-stress activities okay, hottie? i really mean it laaaaaaa (:

thank God for friends, who make what lies behind the big blue gates a livelier, happier place!

forty nine.

2007-06-26T23:10:00.000+08:00

1. stop eating.
2. stop being a bag of lazy bones.

many many resolutions. they say there are only 49 days left to prelims. -cues freaking out.

don't you just love stitch?

2007-06-24T20:35:00.000+08:00

today was just, AWESOME ((: i sneaked out of the house to attend service! it felt so good, so right to be back, singing and praising God, that i just burst into the tears the moment i entered the sanctuary. i'm contented, and it indeed paves the way to a good start of the new term feeling renewed and rejuvenated :D ♥ ♥ ♥ BPMC! yes, the day will come!

ANYWAY, i'm quite interested in joining the Shape run held some time in september! there's a choice between 5km and 10km and the goodie bag is quite attractive. (heh heh) i'll go ask around in schl for equally interested people tmr! teehee.

gtg iron my uniform! can't wait, actually, for schl, speaking of which, songxuan reminded me of chapel in school! which made me majorly happy haha. had a little chat with her after service. warms my heart, alot! thank you.

putting stefanie sun's album on loop now! see, i'm a cheenapok at heart :3

i'l learn to love you more than ever.

sniffles!

2007-06-16T00:39:00.000+08:00

i'm becoming round and jolly like a beach ball! haha been eating ALOT more than alot.

i hate to think that within a week (and a few more days) i'm gonna surrender half of my life to school, another one quarter to ironing clothes and all the works, and the last quarter to rushing out tutorials ):

meanwhile, savour the present! (but please take away my zit!!)

ive an awful zit.

2007-06-14T20:24:00.000+08:00

it's a nice day if you wake up in disneyland (:

i can go crazy.

2007-06-13T00:02:00.000+08:00

it's not a nice feeling.

girls' night out!

2007-06-10T01:53:00.000+08:00

allergy eeeks

2007-06-07T19:04:00.000+08:00

i thereby proclaim that im allergic to a certain species of bald creatures called: the army boys. nothing good happens when i see them; my luck just drops in proportion to the size of population i encounter. GRRRR.

): off to dinner and back to books! croak.

heavy heart no more

2007-06-04T20:09:00.000+08:00

the red envelope

2007-06-03T01:22:00.000+08:00

my heart feels so heavy whenever i think about it,
sometimes i just feel like giving up.
im going so far away, too far away,
out of reach.

theredenvelope.

ps. im still happy! just.. worrying.

2007-06-02T00:33:00.000+08:00

♥♥♥

good day, y'all!
i'm going on fine, hope it's the same for you too!
june's not so emo anymore! (:

anyway, take my test! http://www.truefriendtest.com/friendtest/483155

2007-05-31T20:04:00.000+08:00

haha i spent my whole day (almost) with enli today!
shopping killed my/our feet. as in, really! screw heels. haha but it was still happy and nice! :D it's been so long since i last had such a nice shopping trip! (minus the malfunctioning escalator, the heartstopping jaywalking, AND THE HUGE CROWD)
and then there's the UAN HAHA.
anyway superdog is really good. aiyar i cant rmbr the name but anw it's like this place at vivo that sells hotdogs and super yum burgers! it was so filling and tasty :D food, oh food. it's my only #1 LOVE.
i cant say enough how well-spent this vesak day holiday is. (on top of the school hols) ENLI LET'S DO IT AGAIN, BUT MAYBE WE CAN MUG FIRST? :D
love plenty girl! I AM SO HAPPY TODAY FOR YOU, I AM SO HAPPY TODAY FOR MYSELF, I AM SO HAPPY TODAY.

it's been a while!

2007-05-30T20:14:00.000+08:00

today i feel like im trapped in a lost world and i shldn't be here, where all the hearts and loveydovey reside.
byebye!

2007-05-27T19:46:00.000+08:00

Y this holidays.

class outing: flying kites!
shopping w enli ((((:
visit tingting and her yoggi (and hopefully get to eat her banana muffins)
perfect my own baking skillz heh heh
attend a wedding dinner (i don't even know who's getting married)
chompchomp like crazy (and hopefully exercising enough too)
watch my hair grow
go to church for ball games!
catch the nicenice movies coming up eg shrek! teehee
not forgetting, morph into a muggertoad (gribbit)

on a totally irrelevant note, i dropped my ipod into the toilet bowl. GG.

2007-05-26T17:46:00.000+08:00

hellohello! okay now that holidays are here and i'm a free MAN i shall blog more often :D i'm in a splendid mood today because i wasn't the least bit scolded today! that spells Y-A-Y. anyway..

friday
HALF DAY! celebrated may babies' birthdays too! jessie wrote a lil note for each and everyone of us. and we sang a happy mothers' day song for her! she's really sweet. went to catch pirates of the caribbean: at world's end at lido after that. keira knightley was so pretty! orlando bloom's hawte (: but the plot was relatively.. yawns :/ popcorn was not so good too! but the fighting part at the end was quite interesting, thank goodness i woke up at the right time o.o

saturday
math, GHIM MOH MARKETING :D with twang again. yay i love ghim moh market's food. damn good. which meant i ate breakfast TWICE teehee. fat then fat la! oh then it was BROWNIES after lunch at some cafe. it was so rich! rich chocolate madness indeed. i'm still extremely bloated, especially after gulping glasses of water.

oh on a sidenote, please pray for my cousin kae! she's 4 months pregnant. and the foetus has his/her intestines outside the body! so it's either that or that her baby might have down's syndrome. pray for her okay! it's her second try at pregnancy. she's had a miscarriage before ):

2007-05-20T02:42:00.000+08:00

i looked at my past photos. and i realised im uglyfying each minute. oh my tian.

2007-05-15T20:26:00.000+08:00

"daddy do you know why i can run faster than you?"
"mmhmm?"
"because God gave me the strength! and also the food and vitamins i ate."

(:

2007-05-10T23:53:00.000+08:00

i am shocked. why is blogger in chinese! OHMYGOODNESS.
anyway went out with rebecca ngiap bert for spiderman III cos we were dismissed at 110 and i felt like i needed a break after some lousypok chem test. so turns out i didn't make the wrong choice cos it was really good! the right amount of gore and horror factor and action but mary jane and peter parker didnt kiss in the end WHYWHYWHY D: aaah anyway lotsa stupid things happened both in and outside the cinema. i had fun it's a nice combination, i feel, even though i'm from a different class from them but haha who cares it's only ONE class apart.

daddy's celebration thing didn't turn out THAT well. i was bothered, really bothered. i think i finally know how stress feels like now.

friday! all hail the great day.

2007-05-06T14:24:00.000+08:00

wah i like them all.

2007-05-02T00:23:00.000+08:00

¹³And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

every day i love you.

2007-04-29T21:34:00.000+08:00

i can't think, at all. my head's hurting and so is my heart. okay not really but anyway tomorrow's school but the day after next is HOLIDAY and holidays are always precious and sacred to pathetic students (quoted from yeoyeo) like me so yes, all hail LABOUR DAY. anyway let me blog about saturday it was a really good saturday ♥ i reached school at seven-freaking-thirty in the morning because we have a MATH lesson which i thought was COMPULSORY. and then the teacher reached at EIGHT and we proceeded to do some brain-hurting math and listen to some insults being hurled at us. after 2 hours and a sense of accomplishment aiyun and i left the school for some sumptuous breakfast at ghim moh (and massive fooling around) :D we saw an amos cafe! heehee those who know will know. (side track my head's not hurting anymore cos i just ate some grapes. my mum said it's cos i had low blood glucose levels) it was fun doing rubbish and laughing over stupid stuff and we decided we're gna have breakfast tgt every sat (: BREAKFAST IS GOOD FOR HEALTH! and then it was cell! :D it was only enli dayang lena and jiafa laoshi but nevertheless good. i guess it's the sense of reassurance i get each time i see them! it's a good thing saturdays are almost always enjoyable (: it takes away the arduousness of school. and possibly the only form of contact i have with church.

i thought i saw you looking back at me.

2007-04-24T21:53:00.000+08:00

hola. it's been a month! oh my. i'm trying to fix everything that's been displaced! too much has happened in a month. it's hard not to feel imperfect, it's hard not to feel inferior, it's hard not to doubt myself and wonder what exactly is wrong. escalating fears! rahrahrah. bad days, bad days. more to come. but every day, no matter how bad, will have something worth being happy about, in more ways than one. today i was feeling pretty frustrated about my lost ezlink card, lost pencil tin, eating so much more than i should but not exercising, parents etc. so i hid in my room all night. and then out of the blue i decided to dig out the little cards and messages i got for christmas from the churchies. and i'm surprised, even ashamed, at how i used to prefer presents to cards and stuff because they were more tangible in a way, if you get what i mean. now i look at those lines and lines written to me, and each word brings with it a fuzzy feeling that seems to eat up all the angst and fears and unhappiness. i was really touched at how every message seemed to be of welcoming me to the big church family and stuff. i guess all this while i've been too materialistic and overlooked how valuable such handwritten lines and words can be. okay i'm no longer making sense. but my point is, every single day will be dotted with little blessings, it's up to us to discover. today on my way home i was frowning, but yet confident that something good will definitely happen because i really believe that god will bless each and everyone of us in some way or another every single day. and today it was a precious lesson learnt: cherishing and looking beyond materialistic things.

2007-03-27T22:53:00.000+08:00

okay la just updating so that this doesn't rot. life doesn't suck, but it doesn't mean it rocks either. i think my terms results are sucky like hell, but i guess that doesn't spell the end of my life yet. everyone's getting a tad more grumpy these days because of sucky terms results but venezia & a raisin scone always manage to put the smile back on our faces. maybe we'll all do fine for A's and see each other on stage IN THE END; i don't wna be the only one amongst the empty chairs still clapping for those on the stage! lofty aspirations, but i probably WILL still be one of those sitting down while the whole world's up on stage! what a loser. just musings and more musings; im surprised at how this entry seems so much longer than my previous ones. anyway just something random: there's this weird uncle in my neighbourhood who's, well, behaving quite weirdly that i'm super freaked out. maybe i should hire a bodyguard (s) to protect myself from his advances omgz. haha anyway it seems like the IN thing to add a z behind some random words and act half twit; i think im addicted to it alreadyz as you can see! when anyone sees this please keep me in your prayers i'll appreciate it alot alot alot! and you know these days i dont reply messages as often to those i usually will because, well, mood aint that good nowadays! but it's okay im still surviving and im waiting for the day i can be genuinely happy on sundays. (and maybe saturdays too) we are the reason is really nice, so is the christmas shoe song huizhen intro-ed to me. so heartwrenching.com! alrightos, that shall be all. i think my hair's grown a little it's not that fugly anymore yay! and i wna get those fats swimming in my body offffffff help.

at the cross i bow my knees.

2007-03-18T22:35:00.000+08:00

i finally made it for service today. it was so good, so good. i had no idea how much i missed out until today; it was like feeling God's love all over again. during praise and worship i felt tears in my eyes, and then i remembered what pastor samuel (at huizhen's church) shared about tearing uncontrollably, and feeling loved when his brother told him to begin accepting Christ. God's love, amazing and great. it was a great reminder of how much He loves each and everyone of us. and then today's sermon was in ENGLISH, and i think that's probably why i could fully understand the whole thing. the call to trust, how we respond in difficult situations, the temptation to do things our way and not following His will, and how we can pray for him to show us the way, His will, His plans. and then it was great seeing all the familiar faces. familiar yet so foreign. qiwei lost so much weight! :DD it feels good hearing enwei's voice, may's laughter, seeing yuantying's smiles, songheng's sheepishness, and of course joses' act smart-ness. was surprised to see juin playing the guit but it was quite a pleasant one all the same, reeling me back to the lang hua yi duo duo days with the yewseng and ep. all the i-havent-seen-you-for-so-long hugs. thank you for the welcoming arms. even though i havent been in church for long, even though i may not be the easiest person to get along with, even though i may not be the nicest, even though this and that and many other stuff.

yyxz tomorrow! just makes everything so much better.

mediocre.

2007-03-16T18:40:00.000+08:00

went to gabby's blog, saw no new updates but then i just slinked back into my chair and listened till all the songs were played. very comforting, very uplifting, i feel a whole lot better. so one way or another, thank you gabby. and -shakeshand! you did pretty good for your semester! gpa not bad ahh (:

going to huizhen's church tmr with qixin, for an outreach event i think. i wonder how it'll be like? shit HAIYARR. i just pissed my mum off again.

maybe to you i'm really flawed, really inadequate. haha if this speaks to more than the intended i suppose more people than i expected feels the same.

spread some love ♥

sing to me something so beautiful.

2007-03-15T20:44:00.000+08:00

omgaaaaad it's thursday already. the holidays are ending soon! now im quite sad. i saw jiafa laoshi's mail about the prayer and praise thing BUT I CANT MAKE IT. even sadder. makes me miss yyxz (already) and church even more, all the singing and praising ): I HOPE I CAN GO THIS SUNDAY. sigh! and i think i'm slowly slipping in my studying schedule.

coffee bean staff are so rubbishy. (at least the westmall branch's one are)
and hanakimi is nice; i like to look at wu zun :D

sometimes when we're torn, we tend to make one choice the priority and the other, an option. okay i dont know what im talking about but i do hope someone gets my point, somehow.
byebye.

coming from the lips of an angel.

2007-03-14T22:22:00.000+08:00

why oh why oh why.
AIYAR I DONT KNOW.

happy (advanced) birthday, uncle william! :DD

deep beneath the cover of another perfect wonder.

2007-03-13T22:19:00.000+08:00

my heart broke when i saw this!
it's really really sad.

you took a hammer to these walls
dragged the memories down the hall
packed your bags and walked away
there was nothing i could say

and when you slammed the front door shut
alot of others opened up
so did my eyes, so i could see
that you were never the best for me

emo.com ah.

your voice was the soundtrack of my summer.

2007-03-13T14:08:00.000+08:00

i am very excited because i planned the food i'm gna eat for tmr and the day after :D
the cinnamon crossiant was kinda screwed; it makes me wonder if i should have just pretended i don't recognise the cashier, buy the muffin and run away.
i think i can go be a maid! i like to do groceries and i can do certain household chores. not very well, but i can learn. i can bake sub-standard stuff too! how's that for you.
my brother's room is filled with ants and it makes me feel queasy all over. eeeks DIRTAYE. and is there this smell or is it just my imagination?

a pleasant surprise, but no cheap thrill this time.

phones can be quite a bane to society.

your guardian angel.

2007-03-12T20:51:00.000+08:00

use me as you will
pull my strings just for a thrill
and i know i'll be okay
though my skies are turning gray

i wish i could do so much more.

i guess we never really moved on.

2007-03-12T10:19:00.000+08:00

yay i've got new songs in my ipoddy (: and i'm secretly addicted to the teriyaki boyz song shit even though i always pretend i'm cringing when clarice or shuwen sings it. each era of songs brings back a set of memories, but the happy/embarrassing ones usually offset the lousy ones D: reminiscence.

i said hello, but you kept on walking.

2007-03-11T23:04:00.000+08:00

my kind of happy: good food, good food, good food, and some nice light exercise to top it all up (:

i didn't go to church today, but i guess it was kinda a fair exchange for some family time. we went to vivo to have lunch and walk around. it was quite a standard procedure thing, to lunch, (window)shop, coffee+food, walk around abit more, dinner at some nearby place. but today was really good, probably cos i really haven't gone shopping for such a LOOOOOONG time. my only regret is that i forgot to check out the pullovers at pull&bear TSK. but anyway no don't be mistaken i didnt return home with trucks of paperbags; it just makes me happy spotting nice stuff and knowing i haven't lost my love/touch for shopping (: anyway the cashier at gloria jean's coffee (smth like that) thought i said 'GAY' when i said 'JY' and so i had to respond to the staff at the collection point when he said, "gay?" o.o daaaaaamn.

going to vivo reminds me of alpha camp. how frozenflame went to the FERRY TERMINAL instead of WALKING to sentosa, how tying and i ran there, how juin came out impatiently to look for us only to see us on super low morale, how xibin laoshi said we should just have lunch at vivo, how we all had icecream on our way to vivo. so nostalgic! can't wait for alpha camp 2007 (:

i think i collected a number of weird stares today because i was wearing my YELLOW (pirated) little miss sunshine tee. they probably thought topshop launched some limited edition yellow tee after the PINK LITTLE MISS FUN tees have been sold out :O

march holidays! byebye sleep deprivation, hello late mornings!

i just wish there was so much more than that, about me&you.

2007-03-10T22:00:00.000+08:00

chem spa, chem lesson one after the other; BRAIN-DEAD.
holland v crystal jade with joy and amy; i didn't get lost :D
cell; ate and ate and ate and stoned.
gym; the most satisfying one hour of the day (:

summary of my day! i don't wna go down to the nitty gritties haha. anyway, something that was touched on during cell group: mutual understanding. i just realised all the moaning and groaning and moping i've done recently was all quite immature. maybe we've just attained the level of mutual understanding (: it's okay we all learn!

qiwei: jieying im really proud of you cause although your life is nanhua-like
like mine, you are still willing to serve God so wholeheartedly.im happy for you
that God has given me such a happy and retarted senior that can babysit me and
(try) to tutor me.

sweet (:

von: this is a happy entry! :D