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Unpretty day!

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Let go, and let God.
Indeed.

Tuesday is my off day and I suddenly remembered half-priced waffles at Gelare after school. Nobody's free to go for half-priced waffles anymoreeee.

I've been eating alot alot these days it's bad! :XXX Haha nobody bothers about this space anymore which is why I'm gna do all the nitty gritty here :D The week's been pretty smooth-sailing I guess except for many blonde moments that I myself can't explain o.o I saw the first quarrel that happened too and it was quite bad because there were tears and raised voices and everything. Like the clash between the consultants and the customer service officers. It's quite sad because sometimes the consultants are under constant pressure to raise sales and when they cannot keep their emotions in check that's it. Sometime in the middle of the week I met Zhiyang during my break and we went to eat dessert! And from then on I got to know the food being sold around my place better (which explains the eating alot part). Breaks have been so much of buying takeaways because Denise is on MC and we cant go for breaks together anymore. Oh I've been venturing in the realms of makeup but apparently not getting much better and I've been assured that I'll be equipped with the necessary skillzzz by the time I end work. Oh today I spent my night the most unexpected way. I was supposed to have dinner with Zhiyang after work but I ended up having it with Reuben instead (I HAD to return his ipod vid) and then spent the rest of the night walking around Raffles Place and Clarke Quay! I brought him to my workplace! Because he insisted on going to his supposed future workplace but then we got lost and ended up touring the sleazy nightspots. Okay more like him taking me around. Some woman tried to ask him to go up to some sleazy place to sing karaoke and drink HAHA. Then it was free cab home woooo. So here I am blogging again before I lose the chance to even be in sync with the blogosphere. Everyone at work's been asking about results and where I want to go and everything and it's reminding me of Alevel results over and over again. Tsk but oh well work first worry about the rest later!! I think I effectively spent my $200 already and now I'm just waiting for my next off day and CNY to get ample rest hahaha. Okay I'm going off I'm on morning shift tmr! (: Bye.

Yesterday night was good (: Nothing beats spending time with churchies, especially when it's yyxz, it's true. I had fun singing, especially the reach out to jesus song with tying hahaha. It sounded so much like the blues! Plus all the guitar strumming and everything, wah the bomb. And then on the way home there was this mass singing of all the xing guang da dao songs it's like the fever thing now. So the whole night I was just singing random songs and the brother(s) thought I was emo-ing my night away. It's just that it's been so long since I last sang so much in the night to the skies and everything. Haha okay sounds so wondrous. Anyhow I am thankful for the amount of human interaction after so long, with people who were once so familiar (quite). Thankful, thankful. Thankful how the night of singing hymns set my heart at ease, especially when I was fretting after seeing Liangying's message about baptism. Thankful how He's been seeing me through each day of work despite me having not come to Him for such a long time already. He looks out for us, He really does.

Hi darlings! To those who care, days've been good. Work's kept me busy and I've been quite happy at work thanks to my happywappy colleagues and everyone's been taking good care of me because I'm like a kid to them and the boys told me they will protect me HAHA. Andandand I bought the Sarah Jessica Parker Covet perfume because I tried the sample and it smells so good. Because I bought it out of my own pocket I gotta go collect that damned good progress award to make up for the $$ gone from my bank account. Aiyo omg I'm addicted to the xing guang da dao thing all because I was watching it with the remaining few consultants one night on youtube when I was supposed to photocopy schedules. Okay bye I'm off to watch tv and then go sleep already hope everybody's fine! The last thing I want to happen to me now is to be fired hahaha. Okay bye this is such a redundant entry.

Wah shit la I was such an emo wreck last night now I look at my previous entry and I feel like what-was-I-doing-??? seriously. Okay I am always like that so forgive me. Anyway yes I gotta leave for work in half an hour's time and that's like bad 'cos I haven't gotten anything ready yet. And I gotta learn something about makeup soon because I suck at it but I probably gotta start using it soon. Okay gotta zoooooom bye I finally don't feel so anti-social anymore. We've all got a choice and I think I chose to sulk in one corner for many many days. And I'm happier because tomorrow I knock off at 430 and then after that I'm just gonna go shopping around. And I'm even happier because I'm gonna eat at tcc one day during my break time with Zhiyang! (: YAY. TCC IS GREAT.

OKAY BYEBYE HAPPY DOING EVERYTHING KIDS (:

Fifty miles to go, and she was running low on faith and gasoline

♥♥♥ No, that wasn't what I wanted. I must remember that everything that happens is for a reason. I feel like I don't even have the right to be sad or drop tears anymore because it seems I should be counting my blessings and not have anything to complain about, considering my current situation.

Right?

I like taking cabs at night alone because I can have silent moments to myself and not have to worry about whatever emotions I show. Even if I dig my nose I doubt anyone would catch it. No, I'm not saying I dug my nose just now on the cab.

Today, I said very loudly and clearly that I didn't want to be named Mary because Denise accidentally called me Mary. And it turns out that Mary was the customer she was still serving.

Truth to be told, I'm quite scared.
Of everything. Every single thing.
Never have been so stressed in my entire life.

But it's not entirely bad, I have a secret motivation to go to work.

Byebye, it's only day 2.

You are the peace that guards my heart
My help in times of need
You are the hope that leads me on
And brings me to my knees

For there I find You waiting
And there I find release
So with all of my heart I worship
And unto You I'll sing

For You alone deserve all glory
For You alone deserve all praise
Father we worship and adore You
Father we long so see Your face

For You alone deserve all glory
For You alone deserve all praise
Father we love You
And we worship You this day

I read this at someone's blog before and I realised it's something I'm thankful for, too.

Sometimes I end up telling random people more than I initially intend to,
but I'm glad they actually care enough to pick up this non-random piece of
information amidst the randomness.

hello happy new year evarybardyyyy (:
i just got home to two fuming parents who didnt come out of their room to scold me, thank God. anyway i spent my eve to new year day transition at watchnight service, then with people ive never really been with before (mostly), the songxuan zhiyang daozhi reuben nathan hongen bunch and zhijing who later joined us; as well as had many many first times thanks to them lol :D chilled out at the bar zhijing was working at while waiting for him to knock off. and on the way with them i had: my first hoegaarden, my first tequilla sunrise, my first fluffy duck, my first foosball game, my first running around with a stream of balloons, my first dough fritters with soya bean milk, my first chicken rice (in ages), my first time gallivanting around on the streets of orchard late into the wee hours of the day, my first time exchanging more than 10 lines in conversation to my company (except zhiyang and zhijing and daozhi la), my first witnessing of hordes and hordes of er, foreign workers getting exciteddd over the new year hur hur. very eventful, very memorable yes.

2007 is officially really over, i dont know how that happened, really! life was really all about complaining about the coming A's, and then mugging for them when the big thing really came. did reasonably okay for prelims (that explains the good progress award) and then when the real thing came i just slipped real bad ): tea party and venezia became our haven when studies got too tiring and we were in no better mood to wait hours just for a single last period. pe (my most favouritest subject) to my dismay slowly became optional. churchies slowly came into my life when i began talking to them more online and off. but many friends slowly drifted away at the same time, especially the old ones. it became quite hard to even hold a normal how-it-used-to-be conversation. began trying to love and embrace everyone even though i have nothing good to say about some particular people. embraced food as well and bade farewell to dieting. morphed into an elmo with a silent 'l'. countless cold wars at home to the extent that it began snowing (ha ha ha). many many things that happened, good or bad. but the thing is that, all the fun the good stuff brings ultimately erases the angst and upsetness the bad stuff has caused, so what's really most important is to end and start a year with a big bang so the bad stuff gets reduced to a nil.

which i just did (:

thankful for the wonderful company, really ♥

P.S. i hope true yoga calls me back tmr to confirm with me my work times so i can be at ease already. i asked them that day 'does that mean i get the job?' they said 'yes'. so why does everything still feel so surreal lol.

service later! to say goodbye to 2007 and embrace 2008. think i'll have lots to say after the service, so till then.

and the person hasn't called me to tell me what time to report work on wednesday and that's making me worried because i really still feel like the whole ifoundajob episode is so so surreal.

okay gotta bathe!

pictures! ♥♥♥

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hey doods, i found my job already it's at raffles place! and i'll have an hour break during my shift i heard so is there anyone working in that area who wants to lunch with me?? (: i managed to grab hold of yuzheng and possibly qihui already hoho.

and another thing. talking to yuzheng just brought me sorry memories about A levels :O howwwwwwz.

there's combined service this sunday! last sunday of the year. i want to be able to make it. and i keep forgetting after service we have some nice good food at laoshi's house. yay it feels like it's been so long since i last saw everybody! actually it's only laoshi. and von. hahaha

with the year about to end it means all my friends will start leaving one by one for army! all army boys hahaha. i wish they'l all put their enlisting dates on their nicks for easy reference, seriously i know i asked juin like yesterday but i completely forgot the date ALREADY.

we had a gathering on thursday after my job interviews but it was like with part of the group only. had a little short updating session and it was good even though i hung out with them for a while only. OMG EP'S TOFFEES ARE STILL IN MY BAG I BETTER GO CHECK ON IT.

i shall spare yall the complaints about fats cos i believe everyone's been talking about it ever since the respective feasts on christmas and all! okay goodnight i shall go add a tagboard maybe now or soon hahaha have a happy last few days of 2007 (:

yearly ritual at the sanctuary (: notice how much weight mr lookeewei has lost, really!!

i think it's very nice to see so many people in church today but all working for the same purpose! (: really made my day even though i only slacked around and helped gabrielle cut one and a half aeroplanes hahaha. anyway her name tags are like super cute i think i will take a photo of it during the camp!! my rectangular tags are feeling inferior haha. MAROOMBA sounds so exotic and african, i like. cant wait for camp! doesn't feel like it's coming though, when it's only THREE DAYS AWAYYYY. i better remember to bring phone charger. okayyyy and maybe start finding a huge enough bag to do the packing for FIVE DAYS FOUR NIGHTS. okay now it feels like the camp is nearing!

i love life these days that i have no desire to find a job anymore! every day's been a little happy in some ways and i love indulging myself in afternoon naps and online window shopping. it's been raining every single day thus stealing my precious netball game from me, and every other possible chance to 'go to the library' just to walk around west mall or to do something bimbotic like going for manicures (which i haven't gone for in ages). of course the nearing of alpha camp makes me all excited, but i bet life after camp won't be so exciting anymore. that will mark the start of my job hunting again hopefully! ive gotten down to doing the name tag designs and (did i blog this before) my group name is called MAROOMBA. so quirky and cute i like. and every day there's something worth being happy about! like talking to nice people every day and saying we'll 'wear nice nice and go out okay' but then we never do haha. i still have pending trips that i badly want to go for but i have to plan carefully for church stuff also, which count as 'going out'. yeah lor but life is still pretty good and now it's the name tag making hype! smiles gazillionnnn alpha camp's coming in FIVE DAYS. woweeeee :DD

i know i ought to be thankful but sometimes the overprotectiveness gets too much for my liking and i become quick to jump to my own defences ):

and i just found out our group name is called maroomba hahaha so cute i like. i still dont know what to do about the name tags.

i just ate alotalot at night when i shouldn't again ahhhhh bad mood gets me nowhere!

but i had a long chat with ting over the phone and that made me loads better, really (: