haha i spent my whole day (almost) with enli today!
shopping killed my/our feet. as in, really! screw heels. haha but it was still happy and nice! :D it's been so long since i last had such a nice shopping trip! (minus the malfunctioning escalator, the heartstopping jaywalking, AND THE HUGE CROWD)
and then there's the UAN HAHA.
anyway superdog is really good. aiyar i cant rmbr the name but anw it's like this place at vivo that sells hotdogs and super yum burgers! it was so filling and tasty :D food, oh food. it's my only #1 LOVE.
i cant say enough how well-spent this vesak day holiday is. (on top of the school hols) ENLI LET'S DO IT AGAIN, BUT MAYBE WE CAN MUG FIRST? :D
love plenty girl! I AM SO HAPPY TODAY FOR YOU, I AM SO HAPPY TODAY FOR MYSELF, I AM SO HAPPY TODAY.

it's been a while!

today i feel like im trapped in a lost world and i shldn't be here, where all the hearts and loveydovey reside.
byebye!

Y this holidays.

class outing: flying kites!
shopping w enli ((((:
visit tingting and her yoggi (and hopefully get to eat her banana muffins)
perfect my own baking skillz heh heh
attend a wedding dinner (i don't even know who's getting married)
chompchomp like crazy (and hopefully exercising enough too)
watch my hair grow
go to church for ball games!
catch the nicenice movies coming up eg shrek! teehee
not forgetting, morph into a muggertoad (gribbit)

on a totally irrelevant note, i dropped my ipod into the toilet bowl. GG.

hellohello! okay now that holidays are here and i'm a free MAN i shall blog more often :D i'm in a splendid mood today because i wasn't the least bit scolded today! that spells Y-A-Y. anyway..

friday
HALF DAY! celebrated may babies' birthdays too! jessie wrote a lil note for each and everyone of us. and we sang a happy mothers' day song for her! she's really sweet. went to catch pirates of the caribbean: at world's end at lido after that. keira knightley was so pretty! orlando bloom's hawte (: but the plot was relatively.. yawns :/ popcorn was not so good too! but the fighting part at the end was quite interesting, thank goodness i woke up at the right time o.o

saturday
math, GHIM MOH MARKETING :D with twang again. yay i love ghim moh market's food. damn good. which meant i ate breakfast TWICE teehee. fat then fat la! oh then it was BROWNIES after lunch at some cafe. it was so rich! rich chocolate madness indeed. i'm still extremely bloated, especially after gulping glasses of water.

oh on a sidenote, please pray for my cousin kae! she's 4 months pregnant. and the foetus has his/her intestines outside the body! so it's either that or that her baby might have down's syndrome. pray for her okay! it's her second try at pregnancy. she's had a miscarriage before ):

i looked at my past photos. and i realised im uglyfying each minute. oh my tian.

"daddy do you know why i can run faster than you?"
"mmhmm?"
"because God gave me the strength! and also the food and vitamins i ate."

(:

i am shocked. why is blogger in chinese! OHMYGOODNESS.
anyway went out with rebecca ngiap bert for spiderman III cos we were dismissed at 110 and i felt like i needed a break after some lousypok chem test. so turns out i didn't make the wrong choice cos it was really good! the right amount of gore and horror factor and action but mary jane and peter parker didnt kiss in the end WHYWHYWHY D: aaah anyway lotsa stupid things happened both in and outside the cinema. i had fun it's a nice combination, i feel, even though i'm from a different class from them but haha who cares it's only ONE class apart.

daddy's celebration thing didn't turn out THAT well. i was bothered, really bothered. i think i finally know how stress feels like now.

friday! all hail the great day.

wah i like them all.

¹³And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

every day i love you.

i can't think, at all. my head's hurting and so is my heart. okay not really but anyway tomorrow's school but the day after next is HOLIDAY and holidays are always precious and sacred to pathetic students (quoted from yeoyeo) like me so yes, all hail LABOUR DAY. anyway let me blog about saturday it was a really good saturday ♥ i reached school at seven-freaking-thirty in the morning because we have a MATH lesson which i thought was COMPULSORY. and then the teacher reached at EIGHT and we proceeded to do some brain-hurting math and listen to some insults being hurled at us. after 2 hours and a sense of accomplishment aiyun and i left the school for some sumptuous breakfast at ghim moh (and massive fooling around) :D we saw an amos cafe! heehee those who know will know. (side track my head's not hurting anymore cos i just ate some grapes. my mum said it's cos i had low blood glucose levels) it was fun doing rubbish and laughing over stupid stuff and we decided we're gna have breakfast tgt every sat (: BREAKFAST IS GOOD FOR HEALTH! and then it was cell! :D it was only enli dayang lena and jiafa laoshi but nevertheless good. i guess it's the sense of reassurance i get each time i see them! it's a good thing saturdays are almost always enjoyable (: it takes away the arduousness of school. and possibly the only form of contact i have with church.

i thought i saw you looking back at me.

hola. it's been a month! oh my. i'm trying to fix everything that's been displaced! too much has happened in a month. it's hard not to feel imperfect, it's hard not to feel inferior, it's hard not to doubt myself and wonder what exactly is wrong. escalating fears! rahrahrah. bad days, bad days. more to come. but every day, no matter how bad, will have something worth being happy about, in more ways than one. today i was feeling pretty frustrated about my lost ezlink card, lost pencil tin, eating so much more than i should but not exercising, parents etc. so i hid in my room all night. and then out of the blue i decided to dig out the little cards and messages i got for christmas from the churchies. and i'm surprised, even ashamed, at how i used to prefer presents to cards and stuff because they were more tangible in a way, if you get what i mean. now i look at those lines and lines written to me, and each word brings with it a fuzzy feeling that seems to eat up all the angst and fears and unhappiness. i was really touched at how every message seemed to be of welcoming me to the big church family and stuff. i guess all this while i've been too materialistic and overlooked how valuable such handwritten lines and words can be. okay i'm no longer making sense. but my point is, every single day will be dotted with little blessings, it's up to us to discover. today on my way home i was frowning, but yet confident that something good will definitely happen because i really believe that god will bless each and everyone of us in some way or another every single day. and today it was a precious lesson learnt: cherishing and looking beyond materialistic things.

okay la just updating so that this doesn't rot. life doesn't suck, but it doesn't mean it rocks either. i think my terms results are sucky like hell, but i guess that doesn't spell the end of my life yet. everyone's getting a tad more grumpy these days because of sucky terms results but venezia & a raisin scone always manage to put the smile back on our faces. maybe we'll all do fine for A's and see each other on stage IN THE END; i don't wna be the only one amongst the empty chairs still clapping for those on the stage! lofty aspirations, but i probably WILL still be one of those sitting down while the whole world's up on stage! what a loser. just musings and more musings; im surprised at how this entry seems so much longer than my previous ones. anyway just something random: there's this weird uncle in my neighbourhood who's, well, behaving quite weirdly that i'm super freaked out. maybe i should hire a bodyguard (s) to protect myself from his advances omgz. haha anyway it seems like the IN thing to add a z behind some random words and act half twit; i think im addicted to it alreadyz as you can see! when anyone sees this please keep me in your prayers i'll appreciate it alot alot alot! and you know these days i dont reply messages as often to those i usually will because, well, mood aint that good nowadays! but it's okay im still surviving and im waiting for the day i can be genuinely happy on sundays. (and maybe saturdays too) we are the reason is really nice, so is the christmas shoe song huizhen intro-ed to me. so heartwrenching.com! alrightos, that shall be all. i think my hair's grown a little it's not that fugly anymore yay! and i wna get those fats swimming in my body offffffff help.

at the cross i bow my knees.

i finally made it for service today. it was so good, so good. i had no idea how much i missed out until today; it was like feeling God's love all over again. during praise and worship i felt tears in my eyes, and then i remembered what pastor samuel (at huizhen's church) shared about tearing uncontrollably, and feeling loved when his brother told him to begin accepting Christ. God's love, amazing and great. it was a great reminder of how much He loves each and everyone of us. and then today's sermon was in ENGLISH, and i think that's probably why i could fully understand the whole thing. the call to trust, how we respond in difficult situations, the temptation to do things our way and not following His will, and how we can pray for him to show us the way, His will, His plans. and then it was great seeing all the familiar faces. familiar yet so foreign. qiwei lost so much weight! :DD it feels good hearing enwei's voice, may's laughter, seeing yuantying's smiles, songheng's sheepishness, and of course joses' act smart-ness. was surprised to see juin playing the guit but it was quite a pleasant one all the same, reeling me back to the lang hua yi duo duo days with the yewseng and ep. all the i-havent-seen-you-for-so-long hugs. thank you for the welcoming arms. even though i havent been in church for long, even though i may not be the easiest person to get along with, even though i may not be the nicest, even though this and that and many other stuff.

yyxz tomorrow! just makes everything so much better.

mediocre.

went to gabby's blog, saw no new updates but then i just slinked back into my chair and listened till all the songs were played. very comforting, very uplifting, i feel a whole lot better. so one way or another, thank you gabby. and -shakeshand! you did pretty good for your semester! gpa not bad ahh (:

going to huizhen's church tmr with qixin, for an outreach event i think. i wonder how it'll be like? shit HAIYARR. i just pissed my mum off again.

maybe to you i'm really flawed, really inadequate. haha if this speaks to more than the intended i suppose more people than i expected feels the same.

spread some love ♥

sing to me something so beautiful.

omgaaaaad it's thursday already. the holidays are ending soon! now im quite sad. i saw jiafa laoshi's mail about the prayer and praise thing BUT I CANT MAKE IT. even sadder. makes me miss yyxz (already) and church even more, all the singing and praising ): I HOPE I CAN GO THIS SUNDAY. sigh! and i think i'm slowly slipping in my studying schedule.

coffee bean staff are so rubbishy. (at least the westmall branch's one are)
and hanakimi is nice; i like to look at wu zun :D

sometimes when we're torn, we tend to make one choice the priority and the other, an option. okay i dont know what im talking about but i do hope someone gets my point, somehow.
byebye.

coming from the lips of an angel.

why oh why oh why.
AIYAR I DONT KNOW.

happy (advanced) birthday, uncle william! :DD

deep beneath the cover of another perfect wonder.

my heart broke when i saw this!
it's really really sad.

you took a hammer to these walls
dragged the memories down the hall
packed your bags and walked away
there was nothing i could say

and when you slammed the front door shut
alot of others opened up
so did my eyes, so i could see
that you were never the best for me

emo.com ah.

your voice was the soundtrack of my summer.

i am very excited because i planned the food i'm gna eat for tmr and the day after :D
the cinnamon crossiant was kinda screwed; it makes me wonder if i should have just pretended i don't recognise the cashier, buy the muffin and run away.
i think i can go be a maid! i like to do groceries and i can do certain household chores. not very well, but i can learn. i can bake sub-standard stuff too! how's that for you.
my brother's room is filled with ants and it makes me feel queasy all over. eeeks DIRTAYE. and is there this smell or is it just my imagination?

a pleasant surprise, but no cheap thrill this time.

phones can be quite a bane to society.

your guardian angel.

use me as you will
pull my strings just for a thrill
and i know i'll be okay
though my skies are turning gray

i wish i could do so much more.

i guess we never really moved on.

yay i've got new songs in my ipoddy (: and i'm secretly addicted to the teriyaki boyz song shit even though i always pretend i'm cringing when clarice or shuwen sings it. each era of songs brings back a set of memories, but the happy/embarrassing ones usually offset the lousy ones D: reminiscence.