service later! to say goodbye to 2007 and embrace 2008. think i'll have lots to say after the service, so till then.

and the person hasn't called me to tell me what time to report work on wednesday and that's making me worried because i really still feel like the whole ifoundajob episode is so so surreal.

okay gotta bathe!

pictures! ♥♥♥

♥♥♥

hey doods, i found my job already it's at raffles place! and i'll have an hour break during my shift i heard so is there anyone working in that area who wants to lunch with me?? (: i managed to grab hold of yuzheng and possibly qihui already hoho.

and another thing. talking to yuzheng just brought me sorry memories about A levels :O howwwwwwz.

there's combined service this sunday! last sunday of the year. i want to be able to make it. and i keep forgetting after service we have some nice good food at laoshi's house. yay it feels like it's been so long since i last saw everybody! actually it's only laoshi. and von. hahaha

with the year about to end it means all my friends will start leaving one by one for army! all army boys hahaha. i wish they'l all put their enlisting dates on their nicks for easy reference, seriously i know i asked juin like yesterday but i completely forgot the date ALREADY.

we had a gathering on thursday after my job interviews but it was like with part of the group only. had a little short updating session and it was good even though i hung out with them for a while only. OMG EP'S TOFFEES ARE STILL IN MY BAG I BETTER GO CHECK ON IT.

i shall spare yall the complaints about fats cos i believe everyone's been talking about it ever since the respective feasts on christmas and all! okay goodnight i shall go add a tagboard maybe now or soon hahaha have a happy last few days of 2007 (:

yearly ritual at the sanctuary (: notice how much weight mr lookeewei has lost, really!!

i think it's very nice to see so many people in church today but all working for the same purpose! (: really made my day even though i only slacked around and helped gabrielle cut one and a half aeroplanes hahaha. anyway her name tags are like super cute i think i will take a photo of it during the camp!! my rectangular tags are feeling inferior haha. MAROOMBA sounds so exotic and african, i like. cant wait for camp! doesn't feel like it's coming though, when it's only THREE DAYS AWAYYYY. i better remember to bring phone charger. okayyyy and maybe start finding a huge enough bag to do the packing for FIVE DAYS FOUR NIGHTS. okay now it feels like the camp is nearing!

i love life these days that i have no desire to find a job anymore! every day's been a little happy in some ways and i love indulging myself in afternoon naps and online window shopping. it's been raining every single day thus stealing my precious netball game from me, and every other possible chance to 'go to the library' just to walk around west mall or to do something bimbotic like going for manicures (which i haven't gone for in ages). of course the nearing of alpha camp makes me all excited, but i bet life after camp won't be so exciting anymore. that will mark the start of my job hunting again hopefully! ive gotten down to doing the name tag designs and (did i blog this before) my group name is called MAROOMBA. so quirky and cute i like. and every day there's something worth being happy about! like talking to nice people every day and saying we'll 'wear nice nice and go out okay' but then we never do haha. i still have pending trips that i badly want to go for but i have to plan carefully for church stuff also, which count as 'going out'. yeah lor but life is still pretty good and now it's the name tag making hype! smiles gazillionnnn alpha camp's coming in FIVE DAYS. woweeeee :DD

i know i ought to be thankful but sometimes the overprotectiveness gets too much for my liking and i become quick to jump to my own defences ):

and i just found out our group name is called maroomba hahaha so cute i like. i still dont know what to do about the name tags.

i just ate alotalot at night when i shouldn't again ahhhhh bad mood gets me nowhere!

but i had a long chat with ting over the phone and that made me loads better, really (:

the tea party is really better suited for chilling out over some tea than to have a whole lot of people rahrah-ing over some board games. now i kinda miss having a quiet afternoon over some tea.

i dont even know why my mum is pissed with me. wonderful hurrrrrrrrr.

i really planned to run today until i got called to help xiaohui so i went to help and then my running plan was shelved and instead i ate more tonight which isn't really helping so i decided to forgo breakfast and sleep latelate until afternoon when i'll go meet my class and have a mini celebration for justin who's enlisting on the sixth of december. and then ting and i will ketchuppp (: no yyxz on tuesday already zzzz

just came back from helping xiaohui with the alpha camp stuff. daniel zhilin enwei songxuan were there as well! great fun, life doesn't feel so aimless anymore. i had a really good time just doing work and talking to all of them ♥♥♥

sex monsters. really? i see more and more these days. eeeks.

church today! (: i felt so strange on the stage singing because i haven't done so in ages. it wasn't particularly a good one though haha zixin songheng and i were talking about it after service. anyway daniel is my assistant group leader! but he's nowhere near half as excited as i am. actually today was a majorly sian day but then on the bus i was texting zhijing, and later reuben. so in a way they made my day much better! (: thank you, thank you. next week will be quite packed, but i'm happier that way. takes my mind off stuff that i don't really want to think about, you knowww.

distance, distance.

thankful and happy (:
tmr i'm going to church! YAYYYY.

megazillionic sucks i hate the horrible feeling and i can only wish for it to be gone soon.

no the interview was a sea of scoopie wannabes so i can officially kiss my much wanted job goodbye already. went for supper at macs after yyxz and it was pure mindless happy fun but after that i started to think alot. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh but today is a learn to be thankful and to reflect day. to give thanks even if things dont go smoothly and see the little good things in huge bad things.

____________

to hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk with two left feet
that's when i love you
i love you, endlessly

good luck, good luck to me.

edit. hello i went to read some blogs and i miss everyone already, really.

i swear i've been feeling queasy in my stomach for the ENTIRE day. and for the whole of tmr too, until 530. aha i feel like a wimp for feeling like that haha but i really can't help it because it is my first time. but after that there's yyxz so i'm really looking forward to that! yay. and i'm highly amused by the stuff the air force and the navy have sent. the former sent a card with a pop-up plane accompanied by the sound of engines roaring, while the latter sent a board game with submarines and what not. hahaha what the hell ah. and i've been sleeping and eating more than usual haha that is bad. but they say nuts have good fats so i've been binging on them which actually will make the good fats become bad i suppose. shrugs! alpha camp come quick i'm really looking forward to it. just one year of joining the camp and it already brings back fond memories (: life's been alot of sleeping and eating and tv so i can't wait, can't wait, for alpha camp to come, and hopefully a job to have after the camp. pray for me pray for me!

i am still scareddddd! ):

i am scared about thursday you know you know you know. my littleindia&arabstreet trip was postponed even, just for that. i hope it will be okay i hope it will be okay i hope it will be okay. let it be okay!

hello world i couldn't resist coming up here for an entry. i feel like the happiest little girl today, it was a good night with great songs and great chats. and ever since i recovered my bible from the hidden stash i've been reading verses and more verses every night. (: goodnight, world ♥

Hello!
Thanks so much for your patience with us as we went through all the
applications for scoopies!

Congratulations, you've been selected to come for a Final Audition where
another round of interviews will take place.

Date: 29 Nov 07Registration time: 5.30pm – 5.45pm Venue: Ben & Jerry's @
The Cathay (2 Handy Road. It's next to Plaza Singapura)

If you make it through the Final Audition round, there will be 3 days of
training on 10-12 Dec 2007.

It’ll be from 10am – 2pm on all 3 days.

joy, oh joy. pray for me to get the job okay?

(edit.) okay in contrast to my euphoria my mum's totally against it. omg, i need to take up yoga. 've been increasingly short-tempered lately whenever the discussion switches to late nights and curfews (which is 11, for anyone interested). ahh!

on a lighter note, alpha camp IS really coming! looking forward to the sudden water shortages that come (actually maybe not haha), my group fighting against qiwei's group, and more more more (:

i have a chick lit, the beautiful sights and sounds of littleindia&arabstreet, yyxz, church, playing with tingting's dog, and alpha camp to look forward to. a wonderful week ahead! that alone makes me happy already (:

不要吝嗇在需要的時候向人求助
如果能適時提供幫助是當朋友的一種滿足

my dear girl, i'll pray for you, always ♥

if heaven is a million years away,
oh just call me and i'll make your day.

life is a lot of shrugs and more solitary walks.

没有期待, 就不會失望

hello i am suffering from a deficiency which i'm ashamed of letting anyone know about. but it's not love though. aiyar okay byebye i feel like an aimless piece of thing. gotta go bathe now!

OH MY GAD WHO WOULD'VE THOUGHT MY FIRST DAY OF POST-A'S COULD BE SO.. mundane. so i hope they call me soon so i can go workworkwork and earn some moolah. grrrrrr. D:

i just found out from my mum that my curfew is what. ELEVEN PM. and i am getting increasingly annoyed by it.

你是坏人

this is back on track again! (: yayyy. anyway today was such a whoooosh day i am still in a dizzy mode. i feel extremely flattered but at the same time i also know how lies can be easily told behind a computer screen. andandand. i may be from acjc but i need not be a party animal like the rest. i'm sorry if that's your version of cool. ahhh what conflicting ideas i am really dizzy already. anyway A's are over!! :D but i dont feel any euphoria. takes time, takes time, maybe. okay i really hope b&j's call me sooooooon! wow i think i've lost the blogging bug now that i'm so used to journalling.

plea.

take away my fears,
and set my heart at ease.
grant me a calm mind,
and give me the courage i need.

i've been sleeping with a shadow overhead.

i know, i know, i shldnt be here at this time.
but i am VERY distracted! by 3 things, no less.

1. the new evidence that demands a verdict from enli juin may von. it's really interesting!
2. the rubik cube i koped from laoshi's.
3. and of course lena's msg about her upcoming wedding! (:

it wld've been pretty much a good month except for the fact that i'm probably gna spend it doing prelims, and then the next, all mourning and demoralised.

TSK.

buy me a smile.

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time to clear a little space in the corners of my mind

)': alot of things.

damn stressed laaaaa :(

today was VERY unproductive i highly suspect i'm undergoing yet another biological change 'cos of my long overdue ______ which is here today. aiyar what am i doing prelims are in less than a weekkkkkkkkkkk wake up wake up wake up wake up!

Nerd.

after feeling like $#@&! from studying and having super lotsa distractions in the middle, i went out with my parents to imm (my brother went MIA as usual) to walk around and eat dinner there! YES IT WAS A WELCOME BREAK. we went to kopitiam to have dinner at five plus 'cos i was famished! i think studying saps alot of energy yknow. i remembered having a really full lunch :/ nyeh heh. YTF (yongtaufoo, you acronym illiterates :D) was great, and so was CARROT CAKE!! yepppp. and then we went to giant and bought/ate more foooooood/munchies! i went crazy in four leaves, bread&pastries are so my middle name.

such an eating night, it was.

STUDY HARD! one week left.

come what may.

i really hope things will work out! :/ faith, faith.

i had the wildest dreams of you.

i had the nicest yet most absurd dream last night while sleeping at my table. but it's sad how dreams DON'T usually come true >:( annoying!

anyway, this was one of our informal shots! and i think some of us looked like we were caught peeing o.o check out brendan's ass!

unsettled.

of limits and pushing it.

actually, i feel very loved recently! because all the little prayers i made, God granted them in an instant (: and all i had to do was to ask, and trust. ♥♥♥ CELL MATES, SEE YOU NEXT NEXT SATURDAY!

2 resolutions
#1. FINISH a chapter of SOMETHING every day.
#2. STOP snacking/ overeating.

actually i think i look fine in the mirror! from a 100omiles away.

:B

it's not so funny anymore when the joke's always on you laaaaa.

jaded

the may june july babies! (: empty space = we were trying to pretend lena was standing between us -.-

{ prelims in.. 16 days ): }

hugs and kisses alike.

i'm not in such a great mood to study, i'm afraid! the only good thing that happened was, perhaps, my successful cakey brownies. oh, and probably free movie tickets i received today which expires in AUGUST 2007. hello isn't it like near august already? so annoying.

i am so sad my tummy is growing exponentially ): and on a totally irrelevant sidenote, elvin ng is Y