puiiiii.

*reasons to smile! (:
1. i went t0 sch w xiaojie to eat breakfast and actually had a good laugh from breakfast all the way till before the paper started. it's quite cool to like still hang out w a secondary school person like it's the normal thing to do!
2. i ate butterscotch ice cream at swensens, kinder bueno on my way home and lotsa biscuits in front of the tv but i dont think it actually had an effect on me. no bloating, no bulging. one of the rare days! :D
3. secretsecret. teehee (:

*and then.. the reasons to frown ):
1. i screwed my chemistry terms. as usual.
2. i fell down on a pile of bags in front of everyone cos ive super lousy balance.
3. i thought it was my friends talking so i responded and when i turned around to my horror it was another group of people i dont rly know.
4. "like _______ (insert whatever apt noun), they come and go."
5. i gotta like study for math later. bammm.

see ive more reason to complain than to like, smile and get over it!
welcome to life.
i see no reason in looking forward to my birthday laaah.
bullshit.
maybe i should just rest today.
maybe i am just pmsing.
or maybe it's cos i looked at things that were meant to be put away long ago.

tralala. two more papers t go and im free.
actually i rather not have the terms end.
i like not having t report t sch early in the morning.
and i like lazing around in my house.
and having the time t actually exercise.
so three papers down.
and i think i screwed them all.
chinese, especially.
haii. im screwing my languages up badly.
but i guess im not gna give a shit about them. yet.
wait till the results are back. then i'l like panick madly.
shrugs.
i swear i havent touched fast food of any kind for 9812345735 years.
cos im damn scared my sorethroat will come back.
haha.
the kind that hurts so much you can feel the throbbing pain in your EAR.
yayy so right now im a happy girl eating all my three meals and studying when i think i need to.
just that certain things are abit weird right now and demand immediate attention but i think im running away.
oh cherilyn was quite funny one day i was eating the bread xiaojie brought me and she was like.
'oh you're finally eating!'
i was like. -.-
my hair's growing abit outta place and im contemplating chopping it off and give up the idea of letting it grow.
oh im wearing my sec1 class teeshirt right now.
coolness right the material is so so good after like so many years it hasnt corroded or yellowed.
haha.
im looking forward to the next holiday that allows me t go back t nanhua in the name of a SENIOR. haha.
i am looking forward t dinner cos there's broccoli (check spelling) and there's fish.
i think.
see i told you im a food girl.
and i miss eating cereals.
aaah. okay i shall stop rambling i meant for this t be short but it just got longer :/

and do you realise some bakers and chefs look extremely good?
plus they're able t whip up smth so delectable and you'l never have a day without food.

tmr is the start of the terms.
and xiaojie and i are like chatting madly online now.
haha about how nervous we are and some random stuff.
i was bombing her with questions abt the exam timetable and all.
while she was bombing me with questions abt gp.
and nice her said she'l help me bring bread!
cos i dont have anything at home to eat for breakfast ):
yes im a sad girl.
haha.
i shall go iron my clothes and pack my bag.
and have a good night's sleep.
hope i wont screw tmr!
lucks to those having the horrible termies tmr (:



maybe things could have been different.

freakshit.

i donwna go for the wedding dinner but im forced t go.
damn sick.
and my brother can go play ball.
what the hell.
just because he has the privilege of saying no because he only came out of the army ytd.
grarrrrh.
sucky shit ):

im an unfriendly creature who hates socialising.
and i'd prefer a cosy home delivery pizzahut meal, anytime.
i want t grumble and groan and moan and rant and complain on and on about it but i know you guys are going t get sick of my incessant rantings.
so i shant.
tell me im a saint (:

goodbye, now.
im going t eat my lunch and the time now is 622pm.

i am feeling grumpy today.
grrr.

jigglywiggly.

just by looking at the above photo i realised soooo many things .. ):
1. i have this hugely constipated face but i knew that long ago. so scrape that -.-
2. i have a HUGE head\face.
3. look at those fat arms! ):
4. i have measles for eyes :x

IT'S TIME T WORK OUT MAN.

oh i kinda finished my honeybunch of oats w almonds so ive nth t snack on.
which is basically, good news!
and ive started exercising.
so yayy! (:
and ohoh. i got back my studying momentum.
i mean, i still do fall asleep, but at least i get things done :D

what a good day.
im hungry.
dinner's ready hurrahs.

tata!

honeybunchesofoatswalmonds(:

i think i am easily swayed by my heart.
blame it on the pretty fairytale love portrayed on screens these days.

it's all a sham, baby.

shit ):

so, nothing new.
i cried over that devil show again.
it's so super tearjerking i finally caught all the episodes i missed.
you know i feel rly good after crying each time.
even if it means crying during a show.
i feel like i cried my heart out and everything's fine and tmr will be a good day.
all because i let my emotions loose instead of bottling them up.
it might be a sign of weakness to some.
a sign of immaturity.
someone useless who thinks that tears will solve all problems.
but everyone has different ways of expressing themselves. and i do it the crying way.
which is why i think ive been crying all my life.
when im rly happy or the slightest bit upset.
aah. donno what prompted me t say all that shit.

on a lighter note.
i finally bought my honeybunches of oat w almonds! (:
im a food girl even though i dont dare t eat almost all of what i frequently crave for :/

gaaah.

it's another lovelylousy boring afternn.
was sppsed t be baking at jessie's but had a change of plans.
so yeah im rotting online again.
like. ever since two. or one plus.
aaah. ):
i dont feel like studying anymore la.
i took like two freaking hours t finish interatomic forces.
and five and a half questions of functions.
how shit can this get.
terms are coming in a week's time.
things are definitely not looking good man.
i'l go do abit of english laters.
slack shit.
okay i'l drag myself off the computer at four thirty.
i mean it.
okay i shall stop talking t myself lest i sound like some crazy ass.
i am so not looking forward t school.
I MUST CATCH A MOVIE BY THE END OF THE HOLS.
yes that's how loser ive been :x

lovelypeople. (:

finally went out with the dream team people haha.
okay la. only yewseng yuzheng zengliang. and qixin.
went seoul garden even w much protest.
and yay i didnt have t cook anything again i just ate :D
feels good seeing the old faces again.
even if it means arguing w yuzheng haha.
it's been SO long.
oh we were singing 理想情人 (:
nice song. yay. and im damn surprised yuzheng and yewseng actually knew how t sing the song too.
oh zengliang was busy cooking haha it's damn funny but i think majority of my food came from him so thankyou!
even tho he wont see this lol.
nice friends i have.
they are so gentlemanly okayy.
as compared t the guy friends i have now.
oh donno who said i look different from sec4.
where got!
okay maybe im constantly looking different.
recall sec1 picture. lol :/

ahh. what a nice cosy day out.
and it's damn cool i found out yuzheng's in squash too :D

andthen.

恶魔在身边 is so so good i swear (:
it makes you fall in love w love.
and the whole thing is just so sweet and i'l cry buckets at the sad parts.
as usual.
haha.

i think ive been slacking too much.
terms are in a week's time. plus a few more days.
shit man.
i still dont feel the tension.
maybe i need t fail like, almost all my subjects t rly understand the importance of revising.
:/ you know, people learn through mistakes.

gosh.
i think im in a jumbled state of mind.
you know i look back and recall how ive been bombing everyone w the insecurities i have.
i feel so retarded.
i mean, i still have days i feel like shit.
but i try t like. keep it t myself or smth.
i think i'l grow t be some insecure old woman.

i'l start checking up all the temples and stuff and like. pick a temple or smth soon.
in case i remain an unmarried sad woman and decide t become a nun and hide my loserism.
hurhur -.-



i'l never know.

mytoeisGROSS):

i gotta start studying like, real soon.
cos terms are just 2 weeks away.
at least ive filed up all my stuff.
now, that's a good start.

my dad's mad he said he's considering upgrading t a bmw.
OH MY.
diamonds are a woman's best friend.
cars/gadgets/soccer are a man's -.-

i saw this pair of timberland wedges it's rly quite pretty and comfy t wear.
but it's a freaking $1o1.15 after discount wth.
so much for the GREAT singapore sale -.-
i can buy so many other things w it.

yay i think my throat's getting better.
pizzahut here i come. (soon)
haha ive been eating more carbs these days (finally) cos i managed t convince myself that i deserve all the food after all the 3.2k runs during trgs.

im contemplating chemistry tuition.
unless someone offers t tutor me for free?

tv makes me happy.
i love the 8oclock and 9oclock drama serials on ch55 :D
i love how the love btwn the characters develop it makes me want t fall in love again cos it's so darn sweet ((:

i think girls like t fantasise.

i think i think alot.

ohkay.
i must type this first if not i forget.
i finally found out the song that made gareth gates famous is SAYITISNTSO!
i was wondering like eons ago and everyone told me it was tooserioustoosoon.
and i was like. NO!. haha so there.

ive got bruises all over cos of volleyb.
doesnt matter.
i think im dropping out on monday.
the most go for last trg on monday, then im telling her im not continuing.
its making me so tired, and i take so long to pick up the skill.
dont wna lag the whole team la.
sick.

went for lunch w the volleyballers.
very enjoyable.
now i understn why sam said the other time his senior told him the closest friends one'l ever have in ac are from the same cca.
sick leh my ccas all so slack how t have close friends?!
actually can la haha clsmates yay.

on a lighter note, i met ep and zengliang at ntuc tdy!
like, of all places ntuc. sick right?
what a pleasant surprise! and ep shun bian paid for my lemon aloe (:
im so happy next friday'l be outing for all of us! the humongous gang :DD

i hope i dont fall sick cos we had t do our rounds in the rain tdy :x
it's damn sick my throat's still hurting like hell.
man my mum thinks im damn weak cos she thinks the volleyb trg caused me t fall sick and not recover.
tsk.

ohoh. project runway is so good (:

oh yay i finally remembered to wish someone happy birthday.
who is none other than juin so he better be honoured la.
haha.

today i tied hair! cos of trg.
like back to nh days. but jiaying cldnt regconise me :/
oh thankyou lysia for telling me t not stop and lose momentum on the last round.
after trg went holland v w mel twang ting hz t eat cos i thot i was starving.
but in the end ate beancurd cos i drank too much water.

oh yeah i saw mr chng at holland! (:
damn cool it's been so long since i last saw him la that idiot.
quite funny sometimes if im confused abt smth i'l just ask him about it.
it's just kinda. a natural rxn.

i hate feeling ive done nth the whole day and that im rly tired and dont feel like doing anything.
but you know post-trg's like this slow poison that tires you bit by bit?
garrrrgh.
okay partly excuses :x

saw some of the band people in school.
it's good t see them afterall it's the hols and i dont get t talk t them often.

my throat hurts like hell again.
i know i shldnt have ate that digestive biscuit!

okay, goodbyes (:

OHMANSICKSHIT.

sigh.
tdy's the first volleyb training.
2weeks from now will be the trials.
before training it mattered alot if i'l be in the school team.
after the training it doesnt matter anymore.
haha.
its like 3.2k doesnt even seem tiring at all compared to all the drills?
under the big sun somemore.
MAN.

oh yah quite happy tdy i saw huizhen when i came t school! (:
i was talking madly t her despite my rly sore throat.
she's damn sick i tell you she was like.
'im gna stay back t see how hellish your training is.'
but she didnt stay long enough la.

okayokay ive got a bruised toe but im damn satisfied.
cos its like i survived training1!
TOUGHtraining one.
i dont think i'l get in but hecks lah i'l just go for the trainings.

ALMOSTDIED.

hahaha.
i survived once again on a high fever -.-
but i was rly afraid i'l burn my brain or smth la. rly!
:x tdy morning i saw stars. and more stars.
thank goodness the fever subsided and i went t see the doctor and he gave me like pills and more pills that look like miniscule smarties :/
it's damn funny he said my throat is swelling and has spots.
so i probably cant speak much.
the only good thing that came out of it: i got t sleep like a pig. (:


anticipation.