Had a great chat with Vivian on my way home. Thanks girl for waiting for me to finish squash! (: Those funorama days still feel like yesterday. Love how we always manage to talk non-stop about the most trivial stuff. WHEN ARE WE GOING TO ESSENTIAL BREW TO EAT CALAMARI WITH CLAUDIA AS WELL?

Today the clique turned up in full force! :D My happy pills ♥♥♥ Some come and go, but all these are here to stay (:

Things I wanna say to random people:

"You've gone so far. ):"
"I'm grateful for the space, at least that way I can function more normally."
"It's like a two-way thing, really. You're not the only one."
"Your smiles make me happy (:"
"Stop."
"Thanks for making me feel like shit."
"I still feel a little queasy this day of each month."
"So fake."

I was drowning my sorrows but they learned how to swim.

Very scary.

Anyway, it was a damn lousy Tuesday la. The whole day was so dreary and lesson-packed ): But I think I know what I'm bothered by. Nevermind. Andhowihatetobinge.
The only good thing was that the GP package test's quite easy.
It's okay, tomorrow will be a better day! As long as I try my best, I think I can do it. Right?
I DON'T EVEN WANT TO THINK ABOUT IT.

"You shall not bear false witness." (Exodus 20:16)
Tell me what to do.

A zillion smiles/hugs/loves/kisses to KATRINA VELICARIA ♥ Thanks for your morning surprise ie an apple and a funny sweet letter! ((: It really made everything that was weighing on my mind vanish. Thanks so much babe, life's all smiles with you around. Today went really well for a MONDAYYYY. Chem lab was interesting because we all pretended to be Aladdin while playing with the kerosene lamps :D We are retarded yes. Anyway the new year goodies at home are almost finishing :D I'll go attack the box of Fererro Rochers resting in the fridge as soon as the pineapple tarts are gone! :D And do you know Frosties are actually super nice? I wouldn't have known if not for Charmaine PZX! The stupid tiger kills the whole appeal haha. Go try go try (: Yyxz later! I am scaredddddddd, of __________. Okay byebye I gotta eat dinner and leave!

okay i decided to make it a secret post.

tomorrow there's school. i don't really like school.

gabrielle is going for yyxz tmr! haha i just felt like saying that. that girl makes me laugh (:

There can be so many reasons to everything but it's easy to be only convinced by the worst one.

Bad mood = Eat alot = Empty loveletter container.
Time check: 12.06AM.
Congratulations to me for growing another bucket of fats.

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I don't know if everyone mentioned will get to see this, but still..

Nice talking to you about funny stuff and serious stuff too, Kat. It's nice that we can do this little catching up online when we're too busy to stop by and do it in school (:

Thanks for always caring and listening and advising and keeping me in your prayers, William (:

Thanks you for that message, Cherilyn. It really helps to know that you understood how I was feeling despite it being a seemingly trivial matter.

I love your braiding skills, Amy! My hair was still neat and tidy even after PE :D Can I employ you to do it for me every morning? Happy early birthday anyway!

Joy, you're like my sunshine after rain! It's cool how you're great friends with Ben and how we can easily chill out together (: And I love how we can form an emo club impromptu and start talking about.. life.

Your smiles are a blessing, YuanTying! (:

SongHeng, talking to you is damn fun cos you're super funny and I like to pick up quarrels with you but you know I don't mean it :D And I know you're NO. TWO D:

Tingting, come back from Taiwan! I miss having you around to disturb me during lectures. Do you know all of us actually pay 100% attention (or, fall asleep) in school these days?! And Cold Storage's scones owns Coffee Bean's :/

Jian yang I've decided to let you have a spot in my entry because you're leaving soon. Like, in a few hours! Bon voyage (: Give you chocolates when you come back!

Esther, if I go for games tomorrow, let's play BADMINTON :D

Reuben, aye you retarded army boy thanks for telling me to be happy when I'm not. Good friends right? Tell me more secrets la! D: And be nicer to me!

I still have your 20% discount voucher, Ben. Can I call it my own?

Let's get drunk on coffee, Qixin :D

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It's quite tiring to keep laughing all the time.

And if I could hold on through the tears and laughter
Would it be beautiful
Or, just a beautiful disaster

brother/sisterhood (:

would you catch me if i fall out of what i fell in

i don't wna run away from this

i just know that i don't need this

Which star are you from?
Saturday, 10.30PM
Channel 55

My current ♥. I don't care if you call me an auntie for loving korean soap dramas because I just do. It's my ticket to unlimited wailing. Anyway, Chinese New Year's been stale like every other day, with more food, more time to slack, and of course the hongbaos. I'm really distant from my cousins because of certain things that happened, and also because I don't take the initiative to talk to them. So I can't fault anyone for the gap between us. But it's okay! They helped me cook food during steamboat this afternoon HAHA. What a fats-laden past few days.

:D I'm meeting Qixin and EP and I-don't-know-who-else tomorrow for Swensens!
:( I chipped one of my contact lenses booboo.

Right, happy CNY though we're almost into our third day already! And William, I saw the advert already. Don't look like lorrrrrrrrr.

Your second option.

SIXTEEN FEB. Pure joy (:

Qixin, thanks for the nice catching up at tcc yesterday. It was an absolute essential after so so long. And it amazes me how we still have the same pet peeves about people, and it just feels different telling you stuff because you know the background information and so much more (: Love you liau. More kopi chilling out!

Oh, and Tzeling brought me my birthday present from LAST YEAR. It's like, Espirit underwear! I was laughing at it. Thank you Addie Puiyin and Tzeling! (:


Class contact time (:


Andrea became a Level 7 PIG! :D


Nerds :D Huizhen's hilarious!


Aiyun!


♥ Ting Huizhen Aiyun Mel Cherilyn and our 123456 poses!


♥ Ting, my favourite Venezia and scones girl


Aiyun&Ting, my two favourite girls!


First try.


Second try.


We are twits hahaha.


Trying to catch M&Ms with our mouths :D


My go to school partner! (: And primary school tuition friend :DD


Munting the alien, Wang and Sam (:


Stupid faces (supposedly) but only I looked the part o.o


♥ Before the netball court (:

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY DARLINGS ♥♥♥

School was good. The flowers chocolates sweets tiny hearts messages and hugs really made my day, commercialised as the day seems haha D: Went to meet my favourite people Pearl Qihui Yuzheng Shaorong and Zengliang at Island Creamery in the evening. Ate at Coronation Plaza in the end but anyway, it was time well-spent (: Had a nice little crapping session, and I am glad I got to talk to the girls, even if it wasn't in-depth talk! It's been so long since I last carried a full conversation with them (: Oh and highlight of the day/night: YUZHENG WALKED ME HOME. Actually there was a reason for it but nevermind la haha. Gazillion thanks for the retarded leaf, bearing with my fickle-mindedness at NTUC, missing 2 buses, everything (: Made my Valentine's Day half-true haha! And I can still JIANG HUA YU okay! Let me cut queue next time okay? You know, THAT queue. Hahaha :D Yay. I am extremely happy tonight. Thanks for making my day so right, lovelies! No pictures! ): But it's okay, I think I'll always remember today, the overrated day of love.

MAY
Hey I just read your entry! Thanks darling. Felt encouraged by your post, really! I'll hang in there, because I am sure things will be alright soon! When the truth can no longer be hidden, anyway. Love you dear girl. Happy Valentine's Day! It's so apt that I read that only today, it just makes me feel fuzzy inside knowing that you're there, caring (:

I tried to make chocolate from cocoa powder today and it was like shit, literally and metaphorically. Go figure. Oh well, nothing for you guys tomorrow then ): Valentine's Day is afterall just another commercialised NORMAL school day. BUTBUTBUT it doesn't dampen the excitement I'm feeling because I'm gonna see my favourite people tomorrow, both in school and after school! Plus we can wear our Love ACtually tees to school for a change. Life's somehow taken a turn, and things are in good in some ways and bad in others. But it really strengthens my faith in Him. I love the peace inside me now. Don't I just look so serene? Eh don't tell me I look pissed I am just looking PEACEFUL. Okay I'm rubbishing. Can you tell I'm in a good mood? This is a considerably long entry. IT'S THE ENDORPHINS AT WORK.

Hellohello.
It's funny how I never realised only until today, that I don't have to please everyone.
I hope I can go for service this Sunday.

It's getting tiring lying.

EDIT.
I can't wait for Wednesday to see all my lovelies again.

I'll keep you in my prayers.

I wish I had a magic vacuum cleaner and a self-destructable mask.

Shit I just binged again! I HATE THAT.

HELLOHELLO.
Lots of stuff happened within this few days, and I can't say it's been exactly smooth. Yet it seems that every single day seems so mundane that I don't see the point of blogging. Okay, I probably don't make sense, but anyhow, I am glad for the tiny blessings and the favourite people who've stayed with me throughout this week. Thankyou thankyou thankyou for making me feel loved D: Everybody chin up and hang in there, because Friday's swinging by reaaaaaaally soon (:

My new favourite food = scones (:

happy birthday jason!


So tell me what's bothering me.
Blatant lies, guilty admissions.
Exclusivity.
Silence really, really kills.

Hello, hello. School really numbs people. Or to put it more aptly, it keeps us so occupied that we can't be bothered with all the rubbishy stuff until we finally get some time to breathe and all. Which is probably late at night but that's when we have to go sleep or we'll not be able to wake up the next day and start the whole numbing process again. Anyway, food's my only source of comfort. It's not a really good thing to start eating so much all of a sudden because:

1. I start ballooning, already ballooning.
2. I spend 70% of my allowance on food.
3. I am not exercising as much as I should.

I think my face just got rounder. Damn!

Happy birthday to Shaoming Shuwen and XY! :D I stayed up to text them at the stroke of midnight! I'm damn nice. So long, lovely people.